Kitanai Kimi ga Ichiban Kawaii
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So! In truth, I'm coming here right after finishing the manga, and I feel like this will be less of an unbiased review and more of a release of all the emotions this manga made me feel in the brief hours it took to finish. All those who would still read this tirade, this one's for you lol.

To begin with, this manga is very well-written. That being said, it takes a special kind of f-ed up to fully appreciate it. I'm no saint and even I have a heck of a mixed bag of emotions concerning it. But if your only criteria in recommendations is ... the talent with which it is presented, then have at it, this manga is terrific.

This manga explores sadism, masochism, and machiavellianism in a way that is *incredibly disturbing*. On top of that, it's a bundle of backstabbing, stalking, possessiveness far beyond the line of simple 'love', and depression and self-harm that gets worse and worse and worse, better again for a brief moment, just to lure you back in, and then even worse. I don't want to click this little button for a spoiler warning, since I also want this review to act as a warning; but without going into too but detail I can say: this manga is *horrifying*.

With all that said: Good manga, 8/10, I am going to go throw up.

Very wholesome series with girls doing cute things. 10/10


That aside. (Writing this as 13 chapters are out) This is one of the actual "true" sadistic mangas. Most tend to be like "oh it's okay because the person is enjoying the treatment." No this manga shows true sadism.
The premise itself is disgusting but it isn't badly written.
The black-haired protagonist acting as the sadist is a manipulative bitch with the image of an innocent schoolgirl. And I honestly hope they don't go the route to where they try to redeem her, because right now it looks like she's just cold and heartless because that's just ... her pure nature.
Now the white-haired girl with the role of the victim. What I like about the series so far is that, she really does not enjoy any of the abuse inflicted to her. So it doesn't feel very romanticized. She's just a victim manipulated by her love interest to deal with her sadistic fetishes.

The manga is good at showcasing a disgusting toxic relationship between two highschool girls, if that's your thing. It's also not for the screamish.

I can always enjoy a disturbing story, I'm extremely open to that as a concept or exploration, but this didn't feel right in many levels.

I have to begin with how much I hated "Kitanai Kimi ga Ichiban Kawaii". Let's begin with how the story fails from the very beginning. A pair of students make a fetish bond where one suffers while the other enjoys the sadistic moment, with ever-increasing stakes as one day they're both caught. WHY WOULD THEY DO THIS AT SCHOOL? LET ME TELL YOU WHY, PLOT. If the story cannot happen without the stupidest of setups, you failed horribly. Sure, they justify ... with how "the danger" makes it exciting, well then why is it when they're caught, it's the end of the world? Stupid characters, making terrible decisions; that's the whole story. People wanting the worst out of a situation because "love", "fun", "care", "cute". This plot was terrible, so, why read it? That's on me, I got challenged to finish it, and I don't ever back down.

Okay, so we got a terrible setup, are the characters worth following? No, not really. A bunch of manipulative girls that want fun out of a horrible situation, and they aren't even compelling to watch. From start to finish, idiots, all around stupid people that have so many solutions to every problem at the top of their hat, and they can't for the life of them think about that in particular, leading to a nonsensical ending. Since the beginning of the story focuses on the disturbing sadism, you don't get attached or interested, you just feel gross all over, and that never lets up, but was the beginning necessary to set the stage for the rest? I don't know.

The art is one of those aspects that makes it feel even worse. I've read a very disturbing story in the past, but the art style was in line with what was shown. Presentation is important when showing these themes, and a story with cute drawings and designs, doing so many horrifying things, creates a violent whiplash that makes a reader feel terrible for even looking at this. That aspect created a self-hatred for even considering continuing to the next page or chapter, and I wasn't actually motivated to do it, this was a rage read.

A terrible setup, with a gross presentation that makes one question the idea of just reading it. Did I enjoy my time? Absolutely not, I don't ever wanna remember this story, and I write the review to look back and think how something can get worse. If the writing was good, every aspect could've been forgiven, since now it feels earned to feel wrong, to feel disturbed. The story doesn't justify itself very well and as so, I can say this was a terrible experience but, I appreciate the attempt to tell such a distressing thing.

I feel like a 3.4/10 for this final score, and please, don't read this, enjoy something else.

9/10

Really good manga.

If you don't like sad mangas that make you feel bad that don't read this one. I thought this one was beautiful. I love how the romance escalates in this manga, and by no means is it a healthy romance but by God does it get you invested in it. This writer is an expert at making you root for the villain, seriously.

My only major compliant is that this manga is a bit too melodramatic towards the end. No spoilers, but the amount of people who are revealed to be crazy by the end of ... the book starts to become difficult to believe lol. You're just like, damn is anyone in this novel sane?

And while I liked the ending, I can't help but feel like it avoids the more obvious gut-puncher ending of having real life catch up with the girls, rather than letting them avoid it.

The only way i can describe this manga is... beautifully disgusting. Its like someone was like oh lets make something that is insanely cute but make it extremely twisted!

I was so gripped as i read each chapter waiting to know what happened next, it built everything up quite well and ended up portraying all the characters the way i believe they were meant to be. The art is amazing, its so cute as well as hiding quiet a lot of the really icky things (like vomit).

I would definitely recommend to anyone who likes happy sugar life or just gore and twisted things in general!

EDIT: ... the recent chapters are EXTREMELY CUTE wow

I have never reviewed a manga before, and I probably will not do it in the future. I want to give a warning to those who are suffering from severe depression or PTSD due to past relationships or similar experiences such as myself to avoid reading this manga. It is a very dark and depressing story, and there is no warning on the page, which is strange. However, some people in the comment section are warning potential readers, and I wish I had read them before starting the manga. Now, I am going to read some cutesy Yuri to get this out of my mind ... lol.

Which words would I use to describe this manga? Horrifying. Disgusting. Interesting. Awesome. Yes, an enormous contradiction but I'm not lying. This manga is a combination of all of that.

But, this is not for everyone. It could be the worst thing ever created to some people or a fantastic story to others (or at least a good one). And why? Because the plot is developed around sadism, toxic relationships, weird fetishes, abuse, bullying and more. And it also shows a perfect example of Stockholm syndrome, which leads everything to be more strange than ever. A great proof of how twisted "love" can be.

I didn't talk ... about the yuri part because this plot could fit in any type of romance manga (maybe it's more easy to find it in BL according to some comments I've read, but I don't really know).

I recommend you this manga if you are interested in realism and something beyond the soft and cliché romance story. This, as I said, shows the real face of toxicity, as well what happens through the mind of an abuser and the consequences that their actions causes in the victim (in this case, the most extreme). Obviously, if you are sensible to these topics, try to avoid this manga.

Talking about the art, I really like it and that was the main reason of why I started reading it, though I knew it was about toxicity. The characters designs are great and color covers are beautiful.

Lastly, as I said, there is no many stories who delves into toxic and unhealthy relationships of highschool girls. So that's why I think this is a worthwile experience.

At the moment of this review, I'm in chapter 17. Hoping for more to come.

First things first. If you know you can't handle more drama than you find in Citrus and its likes, I seriously don't think you should read this. For your own sake and the sake of your mental well-being. I know what I'm talking about. I'm not in a very good place right now, but I still read this.

This is by far the darkest yuri I've read. I don't mean to say that it's the darkest ever since I've only read a few hundred yuri works. But it's still safe to say that it is one of the darkest works you could read in this genre. ... Also, one of the most well-written. I've never read anything as mesmerizing and revolting at the same time. You must know that the author is sadistically precise in delivering her point. She is ruthlessly effective in taking you from a deceptively silly introduction to the final that is Eurepedian in its tragicness.

Kitanai Kimi ga Ichiban Kawaii basically has zero positive characters. Almost anyone you see is very likely twisted in a very, very disturbing way. Even the secondary and supporting characters are clinically insane. What you find here is lots of Machiavellian ruthlessness and plotting, sadism, masochism, sexual deviations, bullying, depression, and all other elements one just must find in a manga that is set to destroy the gentle fibers of your soul. That said, don't expect to find your typical yandere here. One of the scariest things in this manga is just how realistic it is. It is only lightly sprinkled with this anime-like grotesque.

The entire plot is a story of a slow-burn, exquisite, masochistically voluptuous descent into self-destruction, degradation, and the darkest depths of despair and madness. It is capable of causing Darren Aronofsky to have a bout of uncontrolled... well, exaltation, let's leave it at that. At the same time, it is almost poetic in its capability of darkening your mind. I've read all five volumes in one go, I was just hypnotized. Devastated, yes. But still, I couldn't stop. That's how well-written it is.

You hate this manga, but you can't abandon it. This is exactly the sort of feeling that drives the main characters here. It's very ironic. Maybe even meta-ironic. You can't help but sympathize with monsters.

So, again, I would totally recommend it. But you must be emotionally prepared.

Written after reading the first 21 chapters (up to date).

First, push on if you're at the first half of the manga, and you don't hate it as much as not getting the point of the plot.
I've felt that way but now the plot is getting more intense and "interesting," in a sense. I'd have given a 5/10 if I dropped after the first few chapters.

What Airi and Hina have between them may seem like love to them (only to Hina I guess), but it'll never come across that way to most of us readers; we just see cruelty. And everything does get much more fcked ... up as more and more people involve later on.
Somewhere between Chapter 15 and 20 is a good place to want to stand up and ponder why someone would write something like this.
I surely was more confused than a blindfolded drunk, and did my portion of thinking. So let's talk about this!

Now, I must say calling this "Yuri" (as a work of Romance) is a bit of a misclassification.
A normal Romance always wants to resolve itself into love: starts with some encounter, then conflicts ensue, and in the end all resolves into either a fruiting love (happy ending) or a past love (sad ending).
This one is, intentionally, neither. Almost everyone is just as pathological as the 2 mains, and when they don't actively hurt Airi and Hina they create more damage passively too.
In the end, the story is devoid of love, kindness, or warmness, and it doesn't seem like it'll be made up in the later plot either. I don't see any of the character getting "rescued" and it'd be quite a surprise if the author pull off one.
In fact I keep thinking that everyone is so broken and twisted, it's almost funny, and it gives a sense of detachment from reality to the story. That does make the story less real, but it helps.
Because my understanding is you're not supposed to attach to any of the characters, and if the story feels a bit unreal, it helps in that regard. Instead, you're supposed to enjoy the thrill of how everyone uses their malice, or just genuine disregard of others, to send these two into a downward spiral.
How Ichika seems supportive for Airi but actually just wants to ________.
How Hina accidentally admitted ______ by ______ but is intentional and it's a part of her plan.

Think of this as a psychological horror work of some sort, with a side of kinkiness, if you will.

tl;dr: you're supposed to get some high from the tortures in the story, not to have a feeling for any of these people.
It'd be quite difficult to go that far, but it is possible to like the story for the story itself.

Love can be horrifying. We humans can be horrifying. What’s most horrifying is when we humans start to feel love. Many of us have been in love or at least know what being in love feels like, but what if I were to say that this manga showed me a new perspective to look at love? One that is so terrorizing that you’ll find yourself clutching your chest after finishing this Manga.

Kitani is essentially a psychological manga that makes use of several themes to showcase the events that take place in the lives of two students -Ai and Hina- who are the protagonists and ... the centre of this story. The manga is psychologically disturbing, but it is also emotionally painful and heart-wrenching. Reading this, one may easily lose their sense of right and wrong because what’s even wrong when it’s all for love? Is love wrong? Is there a right way of love? Who decides what’s the right way? What if I don’t follow the right way? What are the other options left?

The final resting place of love is when you’re at peace with yourself and to achieve this peace…find out by reading this short manga which is only 31 chapters, the art is gorgeous and the dialogues are easy yet meaningful to let you have a satisfying reading experience!

There are people that feel that any media that makes them feel bad is automatically bad. "It gave me bad feelings, therefor it sucks". I'm not one of them. This story is about broken people, unhealthy relationships, and the twisted drama that arises between emotionally immature and codependent high schoolers. There were several moments that stuck with me and the ending was apt for what had transpired. The art is pretty good, not anything amazing but it does capture the torment the characters go through. None of the characters are role-models in the slightest. One of the characters, Ai, could have used more backstory to ... explain how she became the way she is, but the reader will understand that this person starts off as a lonely girl. What I really enjoyed in this story was the conflict in the characters' emotions, that inner torment. I recommend this for people that can enjoy a twisted drama.

Wow this shit is GOOD, now I am pretty insane so maybe my opinion on a manga like THIS isnt the best one, but wow i like this. Not even in a "Woah its disgusting but its well written" kinda way, I mean that I love this manga in the way that I envy the characters, I envy what they go through and i relate to them.
Am i crazy for feeling like this? Oh 100%. however, I find this manga extremely hot and nothing will change my opinion on this
The main characters are absolute sadists, and there's no better title for it, they act batshit ... crazy to eachother and do absolutely VILE and sometimes borderline illegal things. HOWEVER, even though these characters are NOT good people in any sense, they are more relatable to me than any other ive ever seen in media. This manga uncovered a lot of shit about me I didnt even know I had (Most of it pretty bad) and in that regard as well I really do have to thank it for all of this.

In summary:
10/10
most people found it gross but I found it hot

Cheers
-Lisa

You can never enjoy a manga like this, but the story is unquestionably unique so I can give it props for originality but if you can't stomach physical and mental abuse or psychological torture then don't even give this manga the chance because you're going to hate it. But if you're open minded and willing to separate your personal emotions from lots of abuse that takes place in this manga, then it will be a great read about abusive relationships.

This story follows the relationship between 2 high schoolers Hina and Airi aka Ai-chan, former childhood best friends who seem to not be as close now ... that they're in high school. The story starts off innocent, the 2 girls are in different friend groups but are aware of each other, either catching glimpses of one another or innocently touching when no-one is looking. Later you find out the 2 girls were still close actually a lot more closer than the reader and everyone around them thought they were. They were secretly in a sadistic relationship where Airi seem to derive pleasure and sexual gratification from humiliating and inflicting pain on Hina and Hina not wanting to be apart from Airi allows her to do as she pleases but what Airi later fails to see was she was grooming Hina into enjoying it so begins this abusive relationship.

At first you're lead to believe Hina was a masochist but things arent what they seem like at first in this manga. Even though Hina secretly seems to want it or enjoys the suffering/humiliation being inflicted on her it's actually simply comes down to the fact that she's in love and is afraid if she rejects Airi's advances Airi will reject/ignore her. There's a lot of kinks and sexual scenes in this manga so if that's not your thing don't read it(I make it sound like I'm into it lol..) if you take out the sexual aspects of airi and hina's relationship it all comes down to a depiction of an abusive relationship which is very real and in relationships like these the one being abused or bullied grows to like or enjoy it and sees it as love or the abuser's way of showing love. hina sees airi's abuse as love/care because airi mixes in the suffering/humiliation with care like making her food, babying her, giving her one on one time, showing her attention and a side she doesn't show even her closest friends. Airi also continued to abuse her because hina allowed her to, that's always the case with abusive relationships the abuser doesn't think they did anything wrong because the victim or their partner lets them do it (**most of the time**) so when they're called out or caught they don't think they were in the wrong because the one they were abusing didn't reject it. What Airi fails to see later was she was teaching and psychologically changing Hina into an sadist abuser like her. Later on the script changes where Hina gains the power and dominance in their relationship and she basically does what she's been groomed to do by Airi back to Airi, she thinks its love so Airi later is stuck in a fucked up world of her own creation.

The art is amazing, I only wish this was a josei or included mature/older characters but seeing this from high schoolers perspective is a refreshing change.

WARNING, too people who is going to read this, This is not a Normal Yuri romance, yes its psychologic horror, yes there is Yuri scenes BUT, The Theme of this Manga is totally misleading, its not just "Yuri Romance" there are other factors in which cant say, because. it will spoil the whole core of the manga but, what i can say is, is that if you have a weak stomach and a is not comfortable with BDSM (search it up) then this is NOT FOR YOU.

My Review:
To be honest its a great story, it shows the life of 2 Girls doing messed up things ... too just doing doing radical, messed up fetishes which am not going to say. its totally a experience that i can't get out of my head.

ts very fvkced up, like no jokes its super frked, i was reading this and i cant stop thinking how messed up it is. But The Characters and Art, were amazing. truly. the Theme ruins the whole Cutesy vibe for me and in some scenes leave me speechless, its a manga that will make you want to finish it, if you stop reading around chapter 7, i gurentee you that you wont be able to resist the urge to read more, because i tried so hard to give myself a break reading this, but i couldnt because it was so damm good at making you want to read more.

Overall - 8

I wish i could give it a higher scoring but with how i feel about the ending it makes me want to cuddle up into a ball and cry my heart out, reflect what i just witness, and just be an empty shell for days.
Thats gonna be my review i hope you atleast get the gist of what am saying
if your going to read this, i suggest you get a friend ready to talk too about this, its a heavy read

This manga is so weird and dark also depressing, the first chapter makes me suprised but also its kinda wholesome. The story is really messed up and the end is so depressing bruhh.... Fvked author gave me ptsd after reading this not recommended if you like yuri the others chapters is ok but dont read the ending. Gonna reread again but I don't wanna include the ending the seggs scene is good. The story is messed up but also good so 8, character development is mediocre 5, Enjoyment? nope! I'm depressed now.. The only thing I really love about this this is the Art 10!. ... Overall its Good but not recommended.

Personally, one of the best yuri mangas I've read so far. The low score might make you hesitant to read this, and I can see why it might be so low as the fetish play may be off-putting to some. However, this is not the main focus of the manga and it isn't just your ordinary yuri manga. Read further and you'll slowly unravel how warped and broken these characters really are. How a person's life can spiral out of control, resulting in a muddy mess of hopelessness and despair. I remember reading this in one night and it gave me some of the most ... intense feelings of emptiness I've felt in a while. I'd say it's similar to works like Aku no Hana, and you might want to give this a try if you like those kind of manga. Kitakawa is simply the best.

It was beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. Terribly tragic, but beautiful all the same. Every character in the series was so believable. Two many eccentric people in one place and everything comes crashing down. Everything about this manga was perfect, which is as I say in all my reviews, just bare minimum. None of the characters behave out of character, there's no plot holes, and the narrative is consistent in its themes, motifs, and meaning. I would've preferred if this stayed as just us going through Airi and Hina's daily life. It would've been a much more enjoyable manga, but I think that the direction it went ... it made perfect sense and was reasonable. My favorite parts are two things. First is that the irrational behavior that our heroines engage in is established to be within their character long before they actually start acting that way. Second is that Hina is never shown to actually enjoy what happens to her inherently. Masochism in anime is often portrayed as some perverted desire which is inherent to the person. Hina is portrayed distinctly as a person who simply wants the attention more than she dislikes being abused. That makes their relationship feel realistic and adds to their chemistry.

PS: there are only 26 chapters. The rest are subchapters.