I was afraid to watch this episode because I had an intuition it would hit me with the feels... I was so right. I'm trying so hard not to cry right now. This episode was such a huge emotional rollercoaster.
Okay now where to start... The first part wiped some of my fears away, because Ougi being mad about the boobs thing as I expected made me laugh, mostly because it was just a little gag I had in my head and to see it actually happen, and for so long nonetheless, was hilarious to me. Then Ougi started trashtalking Hanekawa and I felt very uncomfortable. Then they started discussing what happened to Oikura's mother. That's when my heart started gradually breaking into pieces, up until the last scene when an emotional piano version of Decent Black played as Araragi reflected on what happened, that was too much for my heart to take, I almost bursted in tears (and I'm telling you that as someone who can get emotional over fiction but never actually breaks in tears over it). I mean... Wow.
Okay, I'll try to explain more in depth how I felt, I need to get everything out of my chest.
First of all, I have to say that while she remains very mysterious and quite unreadable to me, I think I've got a much clearer view of what kind of person Ougi truly is and, how can I say that... I think I love her guys. But like, not in an exaggerated way to say I simply really like her, but in the way Ougi's got all her chances to join my top 10 favorite characters, and right now I'm already adding her to my extended favorites. I won't try to do a character analysis right now because that'd be long, I'm too shaken by the episode for that and I still to see more of her before safely state anything, but from what I've understood... That's a great character right there. Not to mention she's super fun. She better come back in the next arc because that'd be torture to wait until Owari S2 before seeing her again.
But Ougi's not the only great thing to come out of this episode, Hanekawa for exemple was very admirable as always and confirmed her place as my 2nd favorite Monogatari character (well, I'm saying that but she actually was my favorite before Ougi replaced her), and Araragi's realization was very impactful. I particularly loved the whole hints thing. I understood very quickly what happened to Oikura's mother so I was very surprised that it took so long for Araragi to understand it, and when he screamed that he gets it that's when I understood. He simply didn't want to see, just like Oikura didn't want to see. That's something we all do after all, because facing the truth is such a hard thing to do, yet at the same time, we can't move on without first facing what we don't want to see. And that's one of the things I loved the most in this ep, when Hanekawa said Oikura should keep living without knowing the truth and she's been quickly proven wrong. Because indeed, ignorance isn't always bliss. Not knowing the truth, making up your own theories, imagining all kind of messed up things, not knowing how to react... This is very unhealthy. Learning the truth may be hard, but on the long term it can only be beneficial.
I can't really relate to Araragi's naive view on happiness so it kinda bugged me to hear him talk about Oikura finding happiness as if that was super easy, but his naivety is very touching and in the end, the episode showed Oikura isn't going to feel better all of a sudden, it will happen step by step, with the first step being for her to learn the truth and stop clunching onto false hopes and irrational hatred.
About Oikura, I was left a bit confused at how calm she was when talking to Araragi, but when I think about it she probably simply needed for someone to treat her like a real person, to talk to her normally, without yelling at her but also without sugarcoating anything. She needed all that in order to see herself as a real person and decide to try to move on.
With what said, I won't deny that I'm a bit disappointed with the way Oikura has been treated. While this third-parts arc was great and I loved every character involved, I really think she would've deserved to be the real focus, instead of being mostly use for Araragi's own development. She is a great, very well-written character, so I really wanted to see her get much more screentime, at least one scene per episode would've been nice, and getting to hear her discussion with Araragi would've been nice too. If she ever gets back then it's not that bad but if she doesn't then that'd be wasted potential. Poor thing, ignored even by her own arc.
Also, I wanna know what she wrote on the letter, I don't know what was in it, I need to know, you can't leave me like that !
Well, I still have many things to say but that's gonna take a very long time so I'll stop here, except there is still two things I really need to mention.
Firstly, the end of the episode confirmed this arc takes place just before Hitagi End. Okay. But then there's something that doesn't work considering what happened between Ougi and Nadeko in Nadeko Medusa. We know months have passed (don't remember how many but it was at least three or four) between Nadeko Medusa and Hitagi End, but we also know only a few days have passed between the beginning of Ougi Formula (so when Ougi transferred to the school) and the end of Sodachi Lost. How could've Ougi talked to Nadeko then ? And actually, even Ougi aside, there's something I don't get. If the Ougi Formula/Sodachi Riddle/Sodachi Lost arc takes place a few weeks at most before Hitagi End, that means Nadeko was already in her goddess form during the whole arc. But then how did the phone call between her and Araragi happen ?! That can't be a plot hole, that'd be too stupid, so am I just dumb or what ?
Another thing, this time about something Ougi said. When Araragi decided to tell Oikura the truth, Ougi stopped him to ask him if he was planning on redeem himself through making Oikura suffer. I really don't know how I should interpret this line. The words are already very strong, but the way she said it was different from usual, instead of being in a troll-like kind of attitude she seemed much more serious about it, which made this line hit all the harder. The way I interpret it is that Ougi warned Araragi about him possibly making things worse in an attempt to make them better, and her admitting her defeat at the end also included that, in the way that it turns out Araragi did the right thing, but I'm really not certain. And really, Ougi more or less losing her cool at this moment seems to have a deep meaning that I don't entirely get. Well, maybe a better understanding of her character will provide me my answer.
Just one last thing : I can't say how much I hate Wakanim for slamming a KNY movie ad at my face while I'm being overwhelmed by the feels. WHO CARES ABOUT TATAKAE, LET ME SUFFER IN PEACE !!! |