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Continued in part 2
4. Frederica opens her "eyes", and Shin and Frederica have a heart to heart.
On page 151, we have a minor report on damage to the 86's juggernauts:
Theo lost a pile driver.
Anju and Kurena got hit by shrapnel (units only, no bodily damage).
Raiden lost a machine gun.
Each person had lost a machine gun, wire anchor, or a pile driver. All had damage in the form of broken armor or bent frames.
Fido is starting to run low on magazines, energy packs and spare parts, as they have just enough for a full day of march.
Shin hasn't taken any damage, but he has no spare blades, and his propulsion system is in bad shape.
While Shin is telling them to move forward, Raiden notes Shin's phrasing:
Shin says "We'll probably catch up to it before that happens", not "until we regroup with the main force".
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On page 152, we get a minor moment where Frederica opens her "eyes"... and sees the memories of the children on their Special Recon Mission... and she notices a black haired boy, with his back to her, SMILING.
"Why did he lose that smile?" is the only thought that comes to her mind.
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We get a minor talk between the 86 children and Frederica after she asks out loud "Have any of you seen the ocean?"
We get many responses, and at first Shin does make a comment. Eventually the group just starts talking about random comments... but Shin is no longer participating, and while everyone notices... no one points out the obvious.
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The 86 make camp in an elaborate exhibition hall. They marched all day, ran through maintenance, and fell asleep after eating dinner...
But while the 86 are used to the harsh conditions of sleeping on the battlefield... Frederica is not. She does not have her stuffed toy that she got from Shin 6 months ago, so it makes her very anxious...
But she also notices that when the 86 sleep, they stick close to their juggernauts, almost like they are mechanical stuffed animals to them (Shin is noted to be leaning against his machine while he takes the first night shift watch).
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Frederica notices something as she is looking up at the starlit sky on page 159:
"This aroma of the flowers and starlit darkness could exist only because there had been no people to sully their presence. if there had been people here before they showed up, the lights and commotion of the city would have corrupted this transient spectacle. A scorching desert, an infertile wasteland, ruins polluted to the point of being uninhabitable, and this picturesque view, in a sense, were all fundamentally the same thing.
Desolate
Looking away, she faintly made out the lonely form of worn-out, abandoned rabbit dolly lying in the corner of the large room.
"...Is this sight..."
Those mechanical monsters were originally crated to be ruthless instruments of slaughter, but some, even if not by choice, carried the souls of what were once humans.
"...the world the Legion wish for?"
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Shin comments the following: "Who can say?"
The cries of the mechanical ghosts reaching his ears all seemed to wish for the same thing --- to go home.
"...They might not be wishing for anything. They're ghosts. Both those that took in the dead--- and those that didn't. And the dead... don't wish for anything."
(Frederica asks how he can tell)
"...Because I'm just like them."
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page 161
Shin then brings up his thoughts on the ocean conversation they had earlier.
"I can't honestly say I want to see it. There's nowhere I want to go or anything I want to see, and that doesn't particularly bother me, either... But I do understand that not having something to you want to try, as they mentioned earlier, is strange."
We then get Shin's thoughts on his time during the Special Recon Mission:
"It was their first taste of true freedom. And at the time, Shin truly did enjoy himself, as his companions did. And that was because he knew it would end. Someday, at the end of his journey, he would die in the embrace of his aluminum coffin in some remote corner of the battlefield, without having reached anywhere or achieved anything, with no one to tell his tale.
And that's how it should have been. But his brother saved him, and the Federacy sheltered him. He survived longer than he expected and was suddenly faced with a future that was longer and more uncertain than he could have ever imagined.
For Shin, who was prepared to die at a moment's notice, it was far too long a future and far too distant a destination. The future they obtained was far too vast, and without kin or country to serve as their guides, that emptiness was far too... terrifying.
His friends would have been the same, but somewhere along the road they found other things to keep them going (episode 13). Other things to live for. And having nothing to live for was the same as not being alive. Having nothing to live for meant you weren't even trying to live. And so he remained the only one who was not yet alive."
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Shin (Sh) and Frederica (Fr) have a back and forth:
Sh I'm not your knight. I knew that, and yet... I'm sorry. I used your knight as an excuse.
An excuse to turn to the battlefield when he had nowhere else to go.
Sh I'm heading toward my final destination all the same, but my brother isn't there anymore. So I needed something to take his place.
Fr I believe there's more to it than that. You should be aware that they way you observe your reflection in the mirror is wrong. You are not as coldhearted nor as cruel as you might believe yourself to be. You would even cast aside salvation if it meant bring peace to another. Even for a mere ghost... You are truly a kind-hearted reaper.
^this is in reference to episode 13, where Shin and the 86 chose to come to the battlefield under the guise of "defeating Frederica's knight", when they could have stayed in Federacy capital.
Fr If nothing else --- thanks to you obliging my request, I will set Kiri free. I pitied him, trapped as he is in the battlefield, lamenting his fate for eternity. I wanted to set him free... I wanted to set myself free from his anguish. What of you?
Fr... No. Even I...
At that moment, Frederica smiled, looking to be on the verge of tears.
Fr...am afraid of ending Kiri. I am an unwanted child in this Federacy. Now that it has become a federal republic, my being alive could become the spark that ignites turmoil. I am a child of calamity... My absence would only benefit everyone.
And yet, I lived on, believing that I would one day have to put an end to my knight... But once I do end Kiri, I will have lost that reason. And that... frightens me.
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Fr... The reason the way forward makes you shudder so much is because you're properly looking to the future. Because you realized you're walking an untrodden path. there's no shame in that, and even in such times of doubt, you should rely on those walking by your side for support. That is why comrades exist. That is why... people stick together.
Sh ...Raiden told me that, too.
But cold thoughts stabbed their icy daggers into his heart.
Even if they are with me now, at this moment... even those who call me "our Reaper"... will one day, certainly...
Fr leave you behind...?
Sh...?
Fr... Never mind.
The seemingly ambiguous statement was left at that, and it faded into the darkness of night.
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And that is all I got! I am sorry it was alot of dialogue from the book, but it was important to demonstrate just how bad off the 86 children are as a whole.
Season 2 has been overwhelmingly about Shin's crumbling resolve, but the other children will eventually be forced to face the same demons he has...
And whether they break or be forged anew, is up to the strength of their own hearts.