I usually don't write reviews, but there are no discussions for this manga, so this is the easiest way I can get my thoughts out.
I like Nagata Kabi's works, but I wouldn't consider myself a "fan". We love to be "fans" or "big fans" of authors we admire, it seems. And although I can't imagine Kabi-sensei reading an English review on an English website, I would still like to address these thoughts to her, and not to the reader, I guess. Not as a fan, but as an artist, and someone who wants to understand her feelings.
Kabi-sensei, where has the passion in
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your manga gone?
In the reviews for "My alcoholic escape from reality", one reader mentions Kabi-sensei's reluctance to divulge as many details about her family as she did in her previous works. This is understandable because the contents of "My solo exchange diary" were definitely not very kind to Kabi-sensei herself, or to her family. But I'm not here to denounce that behavior. I'm actually here to admire it--
"My lesbian experience with loneliness" and "my solo exchange diary" are interesting works for two reasons: first, they are willing to take risks, because the author is unafraid of her flaws in the moment of writing-- clearly both works were made in a similar time frame and are completely drenched in the strength of the scathing feelings of Kabi-sensei towards herself, others, and her life. Secondly, both books are brilliantly drawn, especially "My solo exchange diary". Now, this is interesting, I think, because you can see the quality of the art drops sharply in the second volume, along with Kabi-sensei's mental and physical health. On a surface level this reflects the mind of the author, but on a deeper level I think this is recognizable as an artistic risk. Here, even at a low point, Kabi-sensei continues to express, even though she knows the drawings are not as good as they used to be. As an artist and author I can admire that Kabi-sensei is willing to expose herself in "My solo exchange diary" 's second volume, because that takes an extraordinary amount of courage. You can lambast Kabi-sensei if you want for "selling her life" or "selling her family" in her memoirs, but I see "Exchange diary" 's second volume as a hallmark of artistic persistence. The simple art is completed regardless of Kabi's failing mental health. The simple art is shared even though it is not Kabi's best. and Kabi maintains the potential for momentum.
That is why "My wandering warrior existence", and "My alcoholic escape from reality" by extension, are failings in my eyes. Even though the art has improved from the last volume of "Exchange diary", there is absolutely no life inside either of these stories, especially the former. This book, "Wandering Warrior", is a draft that I personally would never let leave the cutting room floor. Not only does it fail to engage the reader, fail to have an interesting visual identity, but it literally fails to meet the required page count for the volume. The lack of passion is painfully evident. Kabi herself says that she no longer believes she has a talent for manga. Well, Kabi-sensei, you may be right -- you have dismissed your own talent, which carried you to small success when you were willing to believe in it, with "My lesbian experience with loneliness".
By no means am I saying that artists should suffer unto death for their work, but I also do not dismiss artist's decline with ease. Kabi is in her thirties, and still has great potential for further books. Regardless of if they are memoirs or fiction, I can only hope that with the next project, Kabi will remember the passion that she once held towards manga. Otherwise, I fear she will never again write a book that captures a spark in the way that "Lesbian experience" touched so many. Not to draw comparisons, but look at the band Yo La Tengo- in 2023, decades after their most critically acclaimed albums, they have put out a new album "This Stupid World", that I have not been able to stop listening to. Age does not stop you from accessing creativity-- but a failing pride will. Maintaining ego as an artist is hard, especially in a world with the constant criticism or acclaim of social media available right over your shoulder. If I could say one thing to Kabi-sensei face to face, I would tell her, "get off of twitter!"
 Alternative TitlesSynonyms: The Wandering Warrior Nagata Kabi Japanese: 迷走戦士・永田カビ More titlesInformationType: Manga
Volumes: 1
Chapters: 10
Status: Finished
Published: Mar 27, 2020 to Nov 27, 2020
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Mar 18, 2023
I usually don't write reviews, but there are no discussions for this manga, so this is the easiest way I can get my thoughts out.
I like Nagata Kabi's works, but I wouldn't consider myself a "fan". We love to be "fans" or "big fans" of authors we admire, it seems. And although I can't imagine Kabi-sensei reading an English review on an English website, I would still like to address these thoughts to her, and not to the reader, I guess. Not as a fan, but as an artist, and someone who wants to understand her feelings. Kabi-sensei, where has the passion in ... 
Mar 19, 2022
Another book from Nagata Kabi. This time it’s main focus is about yearning for love and marriage. Although not as impactful as the first or second book, I still found it relatable on so many levels. And that’s to be expected considering all human beings share the same basic needs.
Aside from the desperate longing, there was some discourse in regard to gender identity and sexuality but it barely scratched the surface. When comparing her mentality and self-preservation to the previous works, I felt she has moved forward and is finally on the way to learn the joy of self-love. And I think that’s great. ... 
Mar 21, 2022
This is another fantastic autobiography by Nagata Kabi, but there's one major problem. The translation. A lot of the phrasing and word choices are very clearly Americanized, and that can take me out of what's supposed to be the authors personal thoughts and feelings. I could be wrong, but I have a strong feeling that a lot of the terms for gender and sexuality they use don't have Japanese equivalents so a lot of it felt off. Aside from that, there's not much else to complain about. It's admirable how personal the author is willing to get when discussing dark and uncomfortable subject matters that
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Oct 22, 2022
Once again diving into the autobiography of Nagata Kabi has been an interesting read into the psyche and thought process of someone with mental illness. This time around she's become a more positive mindset and even driven to a certain extent. Rather than it being an experience or a more hands-on situation, it's more of a psychological one. Coming to the conclusion that she needs for herself to be happy first, and once achieving that she'll find happiness later in a relationship. I've enjoyed how consistent the art style has stayed throughout the series and seeing the growth of a person right before our eyes.
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Sep 6, 2024
The author once again presents herself in a tender and pathetic light to tell us, in a tragicomic tone, another segment of her own life: a thirty-something who, after years of dealing with alcohol and eating problems, decides to face the terrifying world of romance and marriage. And as expected, things don't go as she expected, starting with her doing a photo shoot in a wedding dress, continuing with her crashing into the world of dating apps, and ending with a panic attack.
Nagata takes us on a journey full of anxiety, insecurities, and reflections, exploring such complicated topics as her gender identity, sexual orientation, and ... |
