Kimi ga Shinu made Koi wo Shitai
I Want to Love You Till Your Dying Day

Edit

What would you like to edit?

SynopsisBackgroundAlternative TitlesPictureChapters/VolumesPublishing DatesRelationsTypeExternal Links  

For anyone who is looking to read this manga, I suggest reading Catch-22 and Never Let Me Go first. They are award winning novels. Both books contain themes present in Kimishinu. With Catch22 being more about the war, and Never let me go being about the orphanage romance. If you don't feel like reading both, read Never Let Me Go. Its plot is very similar. It will make you feel things.

Beyond that, My Wish is to Fall in Love Until your Dying Day is what I would consider a masterpiece. It perfectly balances its core themes, and intertwines them in a way that the ... story would not function with the absence of one of them. The story follows two young girls, Sheena and Mimi. Sheena and Mimi work well together as character types. Sheena is mostly easily described as Mimi's caretaker, while still maintaining an equal relationship. Mimi is inexperienced, despite her situation. They go to school together, and sleep in the same room. They prove that even in a world filled with pain, love can still blossom.

Anyways, the art style fits perfectly. Solid 10/10. It remains simple, yet somehow perfectly encapsulates every little detail.

The characters are amazing. They experience great character development. With it being a character driven story, I could not rate it any lower than 10/10.

The pacing is good as well. There is no clear time structure, many days could be skipped over, simply because they were the same as the previous. The book focuses on the interesting stuff, there is never a dull moment. Any that you might consider dull, is just unappreciated character development. That or you just don't like the character.

The story is what I might call, peak. If you go in expecting something grand, don't. The story is about children. Do you think they will change the world?

You should try reading again a while after your first reading. You will notice a lot more minutiae details. Some moments hit twice as hard when you know the true meaning.



Super side note. The reason I recommended Never Let Me Go is because I went through the experience myself. Initially I rated this series like an 8/10. But now I realize it's potential. I read Never Let Me Go in an English class, so I was required to analyze and find the themes. Since re-reading Kimishinu, I understood so much more, and realized it's depth.

There are a lot of moments that feel bland, simply because of one thing. You are watching the story happen, not experiencing it. It's the same way you cannot read another person's mind. Never Let Me Go gave me insight into that. It helped me truly understand what the characters were going through, what they were thinking, and how they felt.

This manga makes me feel desperate, not the screaming and shouting kind of desperate but the empty and lethargic kind, and a few panels later it makes me feel all cozy and warm inside...


If i had to describe this manga as succinctly as possible, i'd say "Harry Potter but all female, lesbian as can be, war times, and a very weird mix of wholesome, cute, dark and heavy emotions and moods", and I say Harry Potter referring to the soft magic systems being basically identical, HP's is more explored whereas FLUYD's is only developed when necessary which is a very good thing, and that brings ... me to another really important part of this manga:

It's a manga largely about war, but not in your typical action and combat kinda way for it has almost no action scenes, if you are looking for a manga with those aspects this is not it, instead it chooses too depict the often unseen and unmentioned side of war: the people that are left behind, the people that have to deal with not knowing if the people they love and cherish will return to them ever again, this is honestly greatly refreshing for me for i am a sucker for a dark and heavy story, and i do mean heavy.
There are some aspects to this story that i do not wish to spoil for it would ruin a very interesting surprise, all i am gonna say is that surprises in this manga are not usually good, matter of fact they are usually very fucked up and disturbing in ALOT of ways, summarizing this whole segment:
-War, but the emotional and mentally fucked up side of it;
-Incredibly disturbing situations and scenarios that some characters are put in/have to deal with.
If you like those things or wanna know if you do like them, then this manga might be for you.

Now that we got the dark and depressing out of the way, time to talk about the cute and wholesome, remember when i said lesbian? Well it is, but not in your typical yuri kinda way, for a story that includes girls in love with each other, living together, there is no fan service at all (depending on what your definition of it is, for me there is none at all), it's more of a emotional and genuine kinda love, focusing instead on the genuine connections these people have and how they feel for each other.
However, this love is not depicted in a vacum like with a large part of other romance manga/anime i've seen, it's a romance that I would call "in context", almost as if the love wasn't written in by an author and was instead a product of two peoples interactions, another way to think about it is the connections and/or relationships present in this manga feel almost alive in a weird way, as if the author them self was in these characters positions and were writing them in first person...
After all that praise it's almost redundant to say that when the cuddly scenes or otherwise cute and wholesome moments hit, booooy do they hit, adorable as a word does not even begin to do it justice, but again, that is my personal experience with the manga, and it was the same the second time i read through it, and again, summarizing this whole segment:
-Very gay, very wholesome and cute;
-Genuine connections that feel as tho real people are being written in.

And those are the two main aspects of the manga, the emotional side of war and relationships alike, and an honestly genuinely refreshing use for a magic system, not as the main focus or even as a lazy "plot device" of sorts to insert ridiculous stakes, but a backdrop for an actual human feeling story that transmits all sorts of powerful emotions from positive to negative, so if you like crying and smiling through the tears mere minutes after, this manga is for you.

10/10 one of my favs for sure

Day 6/30 of the Yurithon:
I'm just beating the anime adaptation to the punch here and I had to see what all the fuss was about. Whoever all those stinky, unkempt weebs were who kept on glazing this yuri almost as much as "The Guy She Was Interested in Wasn't a Guy at All" (we'll get there when we get there)... definitely had reason to; this manga is pretty good. In retrospect, I'll probably drop the previous scores down by a point, because this is pretty much a definitive eight-out-of-ten. Regardless, it's good to have a yuri not just rely on romance elements to captivate the ... audience. The setting in of itself really makes you question almost everything. What happened to this country? Who are these guys fighting against? Why is a ten-year-old basically a war vet? Hell, why are all these underaged girls the first line of defence for this country? Can I find someone who looks exactly like the nurse IRL and propose to her? These are all questions which naturally come up due to the setting, and the relationship between Shiina and Mimi is innately intriguing. Reading what basically is a relationship between a centuries-old child soldier and a pseudo-pacifist has already sparked some interesting conversations, and I'm only at chapter fifteen. It's not just them who have taken my attention. The other couple of Seiran and Ari always provided some new insight into the war that's going on, and the magic conspiracy happening behind the scenes has me wanting more. The art is beautiful and I'm so glad that the early chapters aren't a total slog to get through. Every chapter has something which shifts the perception of the world and characters. I'm absolutely ready to pick this yuri back up again, but realistically, I might just take the easy way out and watch the anime adaptation. Sorry.