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This show would be amazing if it didn't get so freaky all the damn time.

(mild spoilers btw)

Jobless Reincarnations a sick fuckin show that forces you to watch a couple of children bang in order to experience the most interesting fantasy anime in recent memory. It takes full advantage of its R rating by being completely unapologetic about the degeneracy of the story and its MC who is a grown man who’s a little too aware of child grooming tactics. Aside from the over-sexualization of children and child-like characters which I’ve become numb to after last season, Jobless Reincarnation still ... finds ways to raise my eyebrows and make me question whether or not its fans are even worth saving.
Never once have I even thought to consider if I would lay down the pipe onna 15 y/o if I was in the body of a preteen, and yet this show has the audacity to write a compelling enough narrative to make me sympathize with a man-child who has the unfortunate pleasure of being able to say he has. I’m still in shock over that sex scene and how the show was legitimately intent on framing this awkward sexual encounter as an intimate and romantic ending to this arc.

But if you’re able to stomach it like I was, you can ... I guess take consolation in the fact that you got to listen to one of the most incredibly composed OSTs of the year … yay!
Each of the opening songs and sequences are perfectly paired together with these enchanting vocals and folk-fantasy-sounding instrumentals as the main characters explore the continent and the many cultures that exist within the world.
The animation is consistent and doesnt drop off in quality aside from the simplification of insignificant characters, but most of you are already aware that the show can go off at any time. I get especially excited anytime the redhead and/or Saitama are forced to fight since the animators always go crazy and deliver some extremely dynamic and well choreographed fight scenes. The show's art direction is just great overall in how they care about fleshing out small details about the world and really sell the atmosphere and setting of the show.

Overall an interesting show but clearly not for everyone. It's one that hides its utter depravity behind a legitimately interesting narrative and world. The show was still able to squeeze out a 6 from me and held my attention for two seasons so its obviously doing some things right. I just hope the next season brings us more maturity from the MC because I’m really tired of seeing all these chud incel MCs in character-oriented anime or just media in general.

Thanks for reading my short review on Jobless Reincarnation!!

Review of Re: Zero 2nd Szn (MILD SPOILERS AHEAD)

ART & ANIMATION [3]
This will likely be a divisive point of contention, but continue reading with the understanding that these are just my personal opinions. That being said, my god is the art just absolute shit. The backgrounds look like the uninspired Deviantart pieces that I used to make in middle school with no absolutely no sense of character. This makes for such an extremely generic and dull setting, which is unfortunate for the fantasy genre in anime which is in desperate need of an artistic reawakening. Just look to another show in the genre like Attack ... on Titan that's able to create a well-developed setting to the point where it becomes its own character, one that impacts its characters in meaningful ways and vice versa, just through careful design and attention to detail.

Moving on the character designs are kind of decent but I'm fairly sure the only reason I still remember Subaru's design is because of the never-ending barrage of Re Zero fandom posts on my Twitter TL, which have burned his ugly crying face into my very soul. I think I just hate the fact that Subaru never bothers to get rid of that ugly tracksuit that makes me so angry, especially when all the other characters have much more interesting designs.

Whenever Satella shows up on screen it's always so jarring how out of place she looks with the stock stinky effect always around her. She also has one of the dullest designs, in general, compared to all the other witches who all have very striking and instantly recognizable designs. However, the fact that Satella, Emilia, and Echidna’s, central characters with large amounts of screen time, have character designs that have such minor differences between each of them(though it's clear some of it is in lieu of the plot), only deepen my indifference to the designs of these characters. I guess all elves just look the same in this country.

The animation is no saving grace either since it’s literally on par with shows from the mid to late 2000s. There are many points where there's just a still frame with a pan while dialogue is exchanged, which is a huge issue whenever Subaru goes to Echidna's tea parties. The action/battle sequences are just as bland, with terrible choreography and absolutely no weight. But the show does a good job of hiding this behind slick camera movements which make them slightly more bearable. However, the very first fight between Rem and those people whose names I forgot was pretty cool, apart from the fact that it lasted like a solid minute. Would've loved to see more of that fight. When you consider how many years for this season to come out, and how it looks exactly the same quality despite having as much commercial success as it has, is nothing short of disappointing.

CHARACTERS [4]
Good to see characters that were neglected in the first season get some attention here. Roswall was surprisingly a very interesting character, mostly because he has the most mystery around him but his voice is fucking annoying please stop singing or whatever the fuck that is.

Beako isn’t far behind in terms of likability. At least she got some more development this season even though I still have problems with her motivations.

I'm glad Emilia takes a backseat to Echidna this season since she's far more charismatic than Emilia, who actually has baby brains and acts like a toddler even though she's supposed to be a super old elf. Side characters like Otto, princess bowser, and whatever her brother’s stupid fucking name is arent even worth talking about because I don't even remember anything about them.

Many of my complaints with the characters of this story are mostly a consequence of the poor writing in the story which I discuss in the next section of this review.

STORY [4]
The writing still relies too heavily on surface-level shock value. Re Zero really takes advantage of cliffhangers and dramatic shifts in tone in order to force some kind of feeling out of you but ends up feeling completely contrived and takes away any sense of progression within the shows characters. One example is the series’s signature move: "omg this character who you thought wasn't going to die is actually dead, but don't worry it literally doesn't mean anything no matter how much Subaru cries over it."

The inconsistent tone throughout the show makes it so hard to follow emotionally. This becomes a huge issue of mine towards the end of the show where the tone shifts become more predictable and make any of the "meaningful" relevations that Subaru comes to even more contrived. There's still nothing that gives weight to Subaru's actions throughout these 37 episodes. His personality, beliefs, or values point to nothing other than that he's kind of an otaku which makes him such a dull character. The worst thing is that he's not even laughably bad or anything he's just annoying and so frustrating to watch. We just have to watch him shit his pants every 3 episodes and go along with whatever the show tells us is true without ever earning the conclusion. They give excuses out of nowhere to justify his nonconformity to his stereotype of being a NEET despite presenting him and reminding us constantly that he's just some regular NEET otaku.

Subaru in particular lacks any kind of consistent growth as a character, as he always, at several points in the story, reverts back and forth between the slimy piece of shit he was at the beginning to a typical main character-kun. You can literally see Subaru reacting the same way whenever he’s in a dire situation, despite previously claiming that he had changed, as he did at the very beginning of the show. Why make him learn the same lesson over and over, without adding anything new on to it? Please have some sense of progression show. There's glimpses of a decent show burried beneath this web of disjointed ideas but I'm really starting to doubt whether these future seasons will be enough to mask what a shit show these first 37 eps were

Subaru is just a huge fucking chud and a big reason why I can't get myself to like this show I'm sorry.

FINAL THOUGHTS
There's clearly still more to the story that hasn’t been shown so I will continue to give this anime a chance. Unfortunately, the high bar of success makes it difficult for this show to live up to my expectations despite having a collection of interesting pieces that I believe have great potential if used properly. If you have made it to this point, I applaud and thank you for taking the time to read my review. Whether or not you agree with my opinions, don’t let my view of the show ruin your enjoyment of it, nor should you use my ideas as justifications to publicly shit on Re Zero. Thanks once again!

A Brief Review of Code Geass: Fukkatsu no Lelouch (Mild Spoilers)
Written By: a Code Gayass stan

For a continuation of a television series with such a conclusive ending, this movie was able to execute a perfectly satisfying sequel (or rather a presentation of an alternative timeline) by adding to the story without lazily undoing the knots that were tied at the end of the original story. In a way, it acts as its own stand-alone movie with how it ends essentially the way it started, while simultaneously acting as a direct sequel by extending its plot threads ever so ... slightly by the time the final credits roll, or rather after they’ve finished rolling *wink* *wink*.

The blistering pace is to be expected of a movie that seeks to include as much fan-servicey-heartwarming-reunion-3D-chess-Geass-battle-mech-fighting-Kallen-panty-shotting as it does in its 2 hour run time. The unfortunate result of this is that the main conflict holds no weight dramatically because of how little it’s antagonists are developed, leading to a climax which I felt seemed somewhat contrived in how it was reached. However, going into this movie with the right expectations, I noticed how the writing is clearly more focused on paying homage to the original series by highlighting all of its best parts, rather than creating a deeply profound conflict like its predecessor (aside: however, it does present a potentially thought-provoking possibility in its conflict if it were fully developed over a longer run time).

For fans of the original series, so long as you aren’t expecting a Zero Requiem part 2 from this movie, and aren’t a Shirley fan, this movie will surely be enough to reward you for your decade of speculation about the conclusion of the original series.
Those who found the original series perplexing and profoundly stupid, you will find more of the same.

Thanks for reading and…
ALL HAIL L.L.

*Mild spoilers ahead*

Carpe diem is a Latin phrase that means to, “seize the day.” It’s often associated with the modern-day acronym, YOLO, yet holds an entirely different meaning within the context in which it is used. The full Latin phrase is “Carpe diem quam minimum credula postero” which translates to “seize the day, trusting as little as possible in the future.” Where YOLO is often used as justification for spontaneous and often dangerous behavior, carpe diem encourages living as much as you can now since the future is uncertain.

Okay, so what was the point of giving a Latin lesson in the first place (aside from ... the fact I wanted to sound intelligent)? Well, dear reader carpe diem is an idea which is intimately tied to the core themes of Onanie Master and about the egoism which emerges from fantasy impacting the way we view others and ourselves.

The main character, Kurosawa, is immediately portrayed as a despicable character with a god complex and an edgy attitude. Like many of us who were once horny teenagers, he has a chronic obsession with masturbation, but goes a step further and uses his classmates as tools for his addiction by fantasizing about their humiliation in order to hide from the fact that he is completely socially inept and incapable of making meaningful relationships with those around him. As such, masturbation becomes a tool for him to create this fantasy world where he uses this dirty deed to “righteously” hand down judgment to his classmates who are being mean to him and others cause they apparently deserve it.

Well, soon the line between reality and fantasy become blurred as he begins actively harassing his classmates with his accomplice, raccoon girl, and spirals further into a world of self-indulgence and delusion where the main question of his arc becomes: Am I strong enough to take responsibility for my past and learn from my shortcomings, or simply am I willing to change. Kurosawa struggles with this question as the people and things around him start to change and move forward but ultimately helps him accept the reality he’s presented with and gives him the opportunity to take control of his life.

The thing with this manga is that even if you end up hating it, you can still gain something from what the main characters go through. In my opinion, how you feel about Kurosawa himself is reflective of the kind of person you are and how much of yourself you see in him. I know in my case, I absolutely hated him for his cynicism and the whole “I am 14 and this deep” facade because I used to view myself in a similar light when I was younger, and can now recognize the ignorance of that phase of mine and draw comparisons to Kurosawa. This kind of story lives and dies through its characters where their relatability and that of the situations they find themselves in creating a more intimate experience with the story, which I find the story great at doing, just so long as you aren't a chad who has never struggled with making meaningful relationships before then you might not like this story (haha nice joke).


okay, so if you aren’t sold yet that means you’re stuck on the art so let's talk about that now.

Art in a manga is important but highly subjective. Art seems to be the most polarizing category of this manga, but I find the sketchy amateurish art style to be very harmonious with the themes and perspectives that the story is written. Character designs are very straightforward and communicate exactly what you need to know about the characters; Kurosawa has long dark hair and a sharp glare cause he’s edgy, Nagaoka has very exaggerated features since Kurosawa thinks he’s obnoxious, Sugawa has bleached hair and piercings since she’s a tsundere delinquent, etc. Still, if you find the art style to be enough to detract you from reading a story as good as this, re-evaluate your preferences.

Anyway, if you care about my opinion you should read it cause it's a nice story about people becoming better versions of themselves and it's pretty wholesome in the end believe it or not. So yeah thanks for reading :)

We are prisoners to the things we think we need.


Is it possible to die satisfied? Surely we'll all have our doubts- the "I wish I'd done blah, blah, blah" as we contemplate all the things we could've done differently had we internalized just how short and unforgiving father time truly is. However, if you were given a timestamp, what would you do? How would YOU live out your given amount of days? Wouldn't it all seem futile? Afterall, if you know *eactly* when you'll die wouldn't every subsequent breathe be filled with the dreadful air of certainty? Is the fact that we don't know when ... our lives will end what makes it meaningful? What's the point to living in the first place if all it ends anyways...

This is the true mystery of life. We know that death will come for us one day, but how do we fill that time with things that are *meaningful*. There is no guide book on how to lead a fulfilling life. What do other people do to find meaing? Spending time with family and friends, doing outlandish things, seeing what the world has to offer, telling people how we feel, and maybe become recognized by history.

But is this what YOU want to do, or is it what you THINK other people would tell you to do?

What is a fulfilling life? Is it the six-figure bank account? Is it being famous throughout the world? Being eternal after death; to be remembered as some who did exist?

Or is it the interpersonal connections that are more important? To find love? To create friendships and restore lost ones? To leave a lasting impression on those around us, so that they can carry on our memory as if it will keep us alive longer? But then again, how could one define something as subjective as fulfillment?

While it isn’t always a priority in our minds, on those nights where you're sitting in bed when it's too dark to see your hand stretched out in front of you, those thoughts will rise to the surface and force us to ask ourselves: "What do I want?"

Yet not a single one of, not a single one of the hundred seventeen billion of us, has come to a single, conclusive answer. It’s become a kind of cliche fantasy that we only realize how to answer that when we're in those final moments nearing death; finding meaning in all the disconnected memories that have stuck with us throughout all of the years, slowly fading from our minds as we slip into darkness.

But if we don't discover that answer until right at then end, what's the point in even concerning ourselves with the question in the first place? Why bother trying to "maximize our time", what the hell does that even mean? Is the concept of "meaning" just something we use to cope with the utterly terrifing reality that life has no inherent meaning? Are just we deluded in thinking that our lives have more meaning than the countless number of insects, plants, microscopic organisms, and animals we thoughtlessly destroy and consume while we ponder these very questions?

Should we even bother asking ourselves in the first place?

Jumyou wo Kaitotte Moratta. Ichinen ni Tsuki, Ichimanen de tells that it's imperative that we do, no matter how difficult it may be.


I'd like to say it isn't profoundly philosophical because of how purely it represents such complex ideas, but the manga shows how something like fulfillment is something of deep importance despite its intricacies. The manga isn't too plot-heavy, and places most of the focus on the choices which these characters make and how we can apply that to our own lives, without having to spoon feed us very single little detail.

The story is very character-driven, with many of the main themes and plot points deriving from very subtle character interactions and decisions. As such, I guess you could say it's not really "deep," so much so as it is "thought-provoking". IMO something "deep" would be a series like NGE which is packed with layers of symbolism, but I digress.

In the end, this is really just a manga about coming to terms with who you are and recognizing your worth. By doing so, we can all lead more fulfilling lives, free from societal standards and subconscious restrictions. It believes heavily in moral introspection, where its bottom line is determining what's important to you, what's worth living for, and discovering the lengths you will go to pursue that worth.

This is really good if you like the feeling of having your heart ripped out, seeing those homeless puppies on those ASPCA commercials, or the ending of Angel Beats. It really isn't too long either, just a short 16 chapters (idk y MAL says 18). the dialogue isn't too heavy so it’s a quick read. Yeah, a really good read :)

(READ THIS PLEASE IF YOU'RE GOING TO READ)
there's an extra chapter called "I say a little prayer" I think it's 8.5 or something, but when you get to it during your first sitting DON'T READ IT UNTIL THE END. It kind of spoils later plot developments and doesn't really correlate with what's happening, but it makes it even better if you read it last. Just a tip from me you don't have to tho lol

-DISCLAIMER-
I'm really sorry if this review turns into a rant, but I'm just pissed that I wasted my five hours on this thing.
This is my first encounter with Devilman so I'm not too familiar with the source material, but after seeing the Netflix special i had to get this off my chest.
Also before I get into this, just a reminder that this is subjective and you can take my opinion with a grain of salt

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Art [6]
The animation was quite honestly the only DECENT category. Many of the action sequences at least were well executed (for the most part), but the character designs were pretty average. ... One thing I will applaud them for was consistency with the animation, where it never really took a large dip in quality throughout the albeit short run time.

Character [1]
Most of the character problems stem from the lack of cohesiveness from the plot, which left ALL of the characters underdeveloped and unrelatable. The story tries to take itself very seriously, by killing off a bunch of potentially crucial characters and expects a reaction from the audience despite knowing LITERALLY NOTHING about the character

[SPOILER SECTION]
The case I'm talking about is with whats his face's mother. I believe she was introduced in episode 5 or something and they killed her off in the same episode. I really pity her character, seeing if she was developed correctly, and wasn't given a short flashback in the same episode, it could've led to a great character arc and development for the main character.

Story [2]
Im not even going to bother providing a synopsis, mostly because of how in-cohesive and sloppy it was conceived. Most of my issues with the story lie with the PACING, EXPOSITION, and ENDING, all of which were poorly executed.
The nice part of me wants to say that most of these pacing issues stem from the somewhat short run time (10 full length episodes), but really I believe the fault lies with the production staff for forcing loads of shitty exposition. Somehow the exposition made me more confused instead of being able to explain what was happening. They threw plot cohesiveness out the window towards the end, especially with the last 2-3 episodes which were a complete and utter train wreck.

[SPOILER SECTION]

Plain and simple, the last 2-3 episodes were complete garbage. Now I can understand if you took insipration from NGE, BUT THE COMPLETELY RIPPED OFF THE MOTHERFUCKING END OF EVANGELION WITH THEIR EVEN SHITTIER ENDING. They even added the red ocean FOR NO TYPE REASON and even COPIED the beach scene and replaced Asuka and Shinji with a lesbian and his abused body pillow.

(Edit: I was really ignorant when I wrote this and didn't bother to do any research about the source material [It was like 3 in the morning], but I'm now aware that Devilman did indeed come before all this other edgy shit so now I feel stupid. However, I'm leaving this next part in only b/c this is truly what I felt at the time, even though factually it was incorrect. The main difference between Devilman's ending and EoE's ending is the degree to which either was executed and how well it was. I had read the manga just recently b/c the show had put me onto it, and it was a much more enjoyable experience than the anime. However, my opnion on the last 2 episodes doesn't change, they were complete garbage, and I wish they could've strayed from the source material at the end in order to make a truly unique adaptation, mostly b/c nothing can change the fact that I hated the ending. Feel free to comment @ me if you want to argue, I'm open to it!)

Conclusion:
If you like edgy shit and like wasting 5hours of your precious time on earth, go get invested in this show and let it shove its meaningless imagery and symbolism down your throat until you actually gauge your eyes out.

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Intro: (THIS REVIEW WILL NOT CONTAIN SPOILERS)
Never in my entire life did I ever have the slightest, most minuscule interest in ballroom dance. Like many others, I thought it was for "old people," where the closest thing I've ever gotten to was when I'd watch "Dancing With the Stars." I didn't respect the art behind it and the effort and passion people really put into it.
Finally, after reading Ballroom e Youkoso, I can say that I still don't really care about dance. Despite, I can respect people who do dance and what it stands ... for, where the main reason I'm not interested is because I know I'm not talented enough to do it.
After reading, I found myself looking up "How to: Tango" on YouTube and finally understanding the difficulty behind each of these dances. With that, I can proudly say that Ballroom e Youkoso is one of my favorite mangas, among the likes of Oyasumi Punpun, Akira, Berserk, and Koe no Katachi. There's a lot to say, so let me explain.

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Synopsis:
Ballroom e Youkoso is a story about a middle school boy named Tatara Fujita, who has no particular direction in life, and doesn't know where he wants to go or what he wants to do beyond middle school. He found himself lured in a dance studio unknowingly by a world famous Japanese dancer, Kaname Sengoku. He then found out he had a great affinity to dance, while still being inexperienced, and declared he'd be a dancer just as great, if not better, than Kaname.

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Story:
If I were to summarize the entire manga with one sentence it would be, "If Haikyuu was about dancing." The story, while being a moving and inspirational, is really nothing and lacks depth plot wise. Most arcs center around a particular competition, involving a particular dancer that Tatara has to overcome, where he then is able to gain experience from. Just as I say that, the story is far from boring. The integration of timely and balanced drama and comedy makes for a hell of a ride and keeps you interested in the events taking place and the characters involved. You can feel the rush Tatara gets during each an every dance and is just as intense, if not more, than Haikyuu. The story sends off the themes of hard work overcoming talent and many other shounen-like themes.

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Art:
Art is usually one of my favorite categories in manga and anime alike as much more can be portrayed through art than a paragraph of words. Likewise, Ballroom e Youkoso art shows the artists great knowledge of good paneling techniques, human anatomy, and character choreography. As I said previously, the art only increases the intensity of certain scenes. The art makes it easy to follow each of the dances and are drawn extravagantly. While there isn't much to say about character design, I found their designs fitting for each character's personality. The only thing I found slightly disappointing were the somewhat lackluster facial expressions and backgrounds.

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Character:
You can tell a good story from a bad one depending on how good a story can portray and develop its characters. Characters with depth go hand in hand with an entertaining story and I must say, I LOVE the characters in Ballroom. Each of them have their own defining quirks, giving them a more realistic appearance. Each character has depth to their actions whether it be Tatara and his struggle to find what he wants to do, or Kiyoharu and Shizuku. (OPINION) I think that Chinatsu is a better character than Shizuku. Fight me

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Conclusion:
If you're on the border about reading Ballroom e Youkoso I STRONGLY encourage you to read. With an upcoming anime adaptation, I assume people will overlook the manga which is a great composition of an underdog tale. Hopefully if you haven't read it yet and were skeptical, I hope this would've changed your mind. If you're looking for a good manga reader site to read it, I recommend Mangakakalot.

This is not a review as much as it is a analysis over the last scene in the film thus, it will CONTAIN SPOILERS of the ending of the film. When it comes to Evangelion, you either really love it's story and characters or you hate the entire thing. I'd just like to convey my fondness for the ORIGINAL series and the EOE. I do hold the TV series and the film on a very high pedestal and refer to them as the closest things to masterpieces in the most subjective way possible.

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That aside, the topic I'll be discussing is the last scene in ... the 1997 film "Neon Genesis Evangelion: The End of Evangelion," where the three main characters in the anime meet on the beach after Shinji ultimately rejects the HIP(Human Instrumentality Project). The topics I'll be discussing are why Shinji strangles Asuka, how & why Asuka reacts that way, and why the ending is "happy." This is my personal interpretation of the EoE. I'm aware that there are many videos, forum posts, etc. already online but many are still very confused about the ending because I'll admit that the ending is extremely convoluted thus, I'll try to explain it in the most painless way possible. This will take a while, bare with me.

[PART I]
The first thing I'll be discussing is why Shinji strangles Asuka. Just to refresh your memory of the most relevant events prior to him choking her: at the start of the film the infamous scene where Shinji chokes his chicken infront of comatose Asuka occurs, Asuka has an epiphany of some sort, everyone starts getting seduced by naked Rei, and Shinji rejects naked Rei. Here's the more important sequence: Shinji and Asuka then find themselves on the beach, Shinji sees Rei floating above the pool of LCL, Shinji straddles Asuka and chokes her, Asuka then motherly caresses his face, Shinji stops choking Asuka and then begins crying, and Asuka looks down at him and says, "Kimochi Wariu." Two things must be clarified before we move on: Asuka IS NOT DEAD as many believe so and "Kimochi Wariu" loosely translates to "I feel sick," NOT "disgusting." These two ideas are very important as we continue.
The reason Shinji strangles Asuka was so that he could confirm that his decision was right to reject HIP and his decision was his alone. The reason he rejected HIP in the first place was because he wanted to be alone and because he wanted to be acknowledged/accepted by those around him. There's a lot of psychological ideas that helped me understand it, but I won't go in to too much depth. The first idea being in order to confirm individuality (or existence in general) there needs to be another form of consciousness, other than your own, that can acknowledge you. Think of it this way, you can never really tell if you're stupid unless there's someone who says you're stupid. This is why Asuka is important. Shinji needs to confirm that he has definitely prevented Human Instrumentality and that he can be exposed to the feelings and emotions of another being. Emotions and actions are all part of acknowledgement such as love, hate, and rejection. Shinji strangles Asuka because he wants to check if she'll respond to him, in which she gives him a soft caress over his cheek almost as if she's saying, "I know you're there, I understand." In which he breaks down after fully realizing what horrible things he's done to her.
People also speculate that he strangled her because shes preventing him from being alone. If he was to accept HIP, he would be one with everyone and always be in the presence of another inside LCL thus, Shinji proceedes to strangle Asuka with the intention of killing her and being alone.

[PART II]
Asuka's last line was a mistranslation and affected almost the entire message of the the whole TV series and film in a detrimental way. In the film the translation is that of "disgusting," in a more negative connotation, whereas she really says, "I feel sick," in the most literal sense. She literally feels sick, she's in pain. Pain from all of the sh*t she went through in the film(The most badass scene in the entire film). She's sick in the physical sense and on an interpersonal sense as well. She's also essentially sick of Shinji in the sense that Shinji is so much like her, meaning that she's sick of Shinji because he resembles a part of herself she hates.
The relationship between Shinji and Asuka is that of love and hate in the most literal way possible. Shinji and Asuka are unable to acknowledge each other in a loving relationship, so they instead do so in a hateful, demeaning, and borderline masochistic relationship.
Asuka has this sexual tension with Shinji where she's attracted to him, clearly shown by when she tries to kiss him and seduce him. However, the reason she was upset was because of Shinji's muted reactions. Shinji didn't give her what she wanted, which was sex. Shinji is also attracted to her, but before he can open up to sexual interaction, he needs to first establish acceptance between the two of them. This is also where the acknowledgement ideas and the hedgehog dilemma come into play. Using these ideas, after Asuka lovingly caresses him, he cries, and she's unhappy with LITERALLY EVERYTHING AROUND HER.

[PART III]
Yes, yes, yes. I did say End of Eva had a happy ending along with a very hopeful message too. The message Eva is trying to get across is that of acceptance. Only when you accept and love yourself can you love and accept others.
The last episode in the TV series takes place in Shinji's head, parallel to whats happening when he's in that LCL form, right before he rejects it. In that it talks about certain dilemmas Shinji has with himself and with those around him where he finally accepts his flaws and those around him, leading to the anticlimactic "Congratulations" ending. Not only Shinji, but every character is forced to come to terms with their flaws and wrong doings in the End of Eva and move on. A good example of this would be what Ritsuko does. After coming to terms with the fact that she's a terrible person(for many reasons including that she killed a 14 y/o girl, is a sex slave to Gendou, etc.) she begs for Misato to end her life, almost like penance for what she's done. Without context, it sounds like an extremely brutal thing, but Ritsuko essentially comes to terms with who she is with all of her boy troubles, mommy troubles, the fact that shes a murdurer and accepts her fate as SHE sees fit.

[CONCLUSION]
The main points being that Shinji strangle Asuka so that he can confirm his own existence, Asuka says "I feel disgusting," because she's in pain and because of Baka Shinji, and the ending is happy because it ends with the message of self acceptance and coming to terms with one's flaws in order to improve upon oneself.

P.S. Please excuse any grammatical inconsistencies. I really hope this helped anyone who was confused by the End of Eva. If you guys enjoyed this I'll definitely cover anymore Eva questions you guys have. Thanks for reading!

Synopsis: 17 y/o Rin is trapped in a position of physical stasis where in her head she experiences a simulated reality where she's essentially the "God", and has the ability to create whatever she wants through her magical iPad. In her imaginary world she's the only one, she's alone (Side note: however since she has the ability to create and change her world, wouldn't it be possible to create life?). During one of her uneventful days she sees a swing. Knowing that she hadn't drawn it, she curiously touches it where she recovers some of her memories. Her simulation begins reciprocating her memories before she ... was in stasis. She sees her and her father going about their lives. We then learn that seven years before the earth would soon come into contact with another celestial body, thus ending the existence of life on earth. Like any good father, he creates a mini space ship in his awesome lab he has in his house and send her off to space. These memories she regains gives her motivation to move forward in her seemingly hopeless situation.

Before getting into the review itself, this review (like any other) is subjective and based on my personal thought process while watching this short. I won't go into depth over any topic I deem important such as sound and art. I'll TRY to keep it short.

Story(7/10):
The story reminded me of Superman, don't know why. The story wasn't as amazing as it's many cultist fans praise it to be. Unlike most anime, most of the story telling is done through animation where there is a paragraph of dialogue at most. It did a good job of hooking me in during the opening sequence and keeping me hooked throughout through the animation. If this story included more dialogue and exposition, I would've lost interest halfway through. I do enjoy how they foreshadowed events in the very beginning, just to ensure us that the blissful atmosphere in the beginning isn't what it seems. The analogy I'd like to use to describe the story is a pancake, or even a crepe (whatever you like better). The story itself doesn't have any underlying themes or messages. It's mostly about reflection, and that your worst moments can be used a motivation to move forward. Other than that I can't think of anything, almost cookie cutter in a sense. It had a somewhat generic bittersweet ending too.

Art(9.5)
A-1 is always good, especially when it comes to character's facial expressions. There were VERY little complaints I had about the animation, aside from that terrible CG scene in the with the mountain rock thingy that was bad. Personally, I couldn't have seen any other studio doing this project besides A-1 Pictures, because of the fact that this was a story told through animation. There isn't much I can say about character designs besides generic. Not saying her character looked bad (far from it). She just wasn't that creative of a character. Any japanese artist could've created her, I just wish Porter would've took more time in making her more unique, being that he's one of few westerners to be able to collaborate with an amazing studio such as A-1 Pictures.

Sound(6):
Sorry, I didn't really like Shelter. I was never an EDM guy, but I guess I understand why people liked it. I think a more instrumental song would've gone with it better, maybe a piano version would've been good.

Character(8):
I was emotionally attached to Rin throughout the story, mostly because I just felt bad for her. Since there is not exposition, you can't really resonate with her beyond the fact that you feel bad cause she's alone. There's no dialogue involved where we can learn more about her that makes her no different from us. Still, I prefer it this way. This isn't a story that's supposed to make you reflect upon yourself, in other words it's not thought provoking (not in a bad way). You're simply attached to the fact that its her story that your watching.

Overall(8):
I don't like associating numbers with anime, despite the fact that I do it all the time. I use it more as a ranking system in my own head to see which one I liked more. In the end all that matters is whether I liked a show or not, where sometimes I just happen to like on more.
That being said I did like Shelter; however, people really over hyped this for me. Hearing everyone call it a masterpiece, perfect and using other extremely subjective adjectives to described it made my expectations for this to skyrocket. Maybe if I hadn't listened to any of it, I wouldn't have been as disappointed as I was, but I doubt that. Too many people get caught up in the hype, but if you were to take a second and step back and really process and analyze this short's story, you could point out small flaws throughout. I'm not bashing it whatsoever, not in the slightest. I'm just pointing out how people really have to analyze what there watching in this now over-saturated-market-of-mediocrity in the anime industry.
All that matters in the end is your interpretation, and the story you take while watching shelter, as long as you have justification other than, "It was so sad," or "Porter Robinson is so good!" (sorry for this rant)
Even if you don't end up liking it, you'd be missing out if you don't watch it, so I highly recommend you go and watch it!!


PS: Sorry for my tangent during the end, I'm just unhappy on how people can automatically call something a master piece without proper justification. That's the best way I can put my feelings into words. This was one of first reviews so excuse and grammatical inconsistencies or conflicting ideas etc. Other than that I hope you guys found this helpful.

[Story] 6
For the most part, KonoBi takes place in a generic school setting where the main cast spends their days in the Art club. The story revolves around the art club members but mainly focuses on Usa and Uchimaki. Throughout the show, we get to see Usami-chan's experience in having to deal with Uchimaki-kun's addiction, and don't worry, this story isn't that dark. This sets up a handful of hilarious scenes and minor plot twists that might squeeze out some air from your nostrils. The story doesn't do anything in particular with the school setting that would've changed the story drastically if it didn't take ... place at school. The romance is sprinkled in here and there, but any real romantic developments are usually shot down with a one-liner from Cole-chan or anyone from the supporting cast. Overall, the story is nothing groundbreaking, but it is able to keep your interest if you are willing to give the show a chance.

[Art] 7
Studio feel. got the job done here. The animation takes a dip in the middle of the series, b/c im sure KonoBi wasn't presented with a commendable budget where they could splurge on animation. For the most part, the animation is very smooth and can be VERY gorgeous when it wants to be.

[Sound] 6
Again, the OST is nothing too special, sets the mood for the most part, and gets the job done. Casting and voice acting was pretty good imo too. Nothing else to say really...

[Setting]
Most of the action takes place on a Middle School campus, where the character's would occasionally be seen in their houses or walking together on the street. The setting isn't used to a particular advantage, more as an excuse to put all these cute characters in one place. Nothing noteworthy.

[Character] 8
The character designs are nothing new, but all of the characters are extremely kawaii and fit perfectly into a middle school setting, my favorite of the bunch being Imari, duh. The characters are extremely relateable, Usami in particular, and this makes for a more believable, entertaining story in the long-run. You don't see much in the category of character development, and you could go as far as to say that there wasn't any at all.

[Overall] 7
In short, this show isn't an investment, you can pick it up at anytime and expect to see some good waifu/Imari action, and a good laugh or two. I know saying the characters are cute isn't a good reason to watch a show, but please just watch it, even if its for the cute Usa/Cole/Imari scenes. If you're the one who assumed that this would be another generic school/romance/comedy show, YOU WERE RIGHT, but this show steady pace keeps the watcher's devotion to story and character's and their daily interatctions with one another.

[P.S. This is my first review EVER so if it was bad, I know, I read it too. I just had to review this so that people know that its not that bad of a show. Just give it a chance.]