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Should start off by saying if you can't stomach SA/non-con/implied grooming or making light of it (still confused on this front) then this is not for you!

This manga is confusing lol. I gave this a 5 not because it is a bad/boring series, but because it felt like the tone changed gears so abruptly between volumes that it is hard to rate it objectively as one series. I think the premise is interesting? Its definitely insane, but I was curious to see how they were gonna handle Aoki's childhood trauma and what the hell Manabu's deal is.

My biggest gripe is the following:
This ... trope is pretty common in bl but it is frustrating watching a character not have a good relationship with sex and then get assaulted and they are immediately intrigued/want more and that is treated as their responsibility. It is particularly frustrating with this series because Aoki's trauma is very tightly connected to his sexual desires/experiences, their interactions intentionally mirror his abuse, but then they just stop going into that when Manabu learns to be normal or whatever. It's how their whole relationship started but is literally just never brought up again? I dont understand that. To that point, Manabu switching up the way he did felt too jarring. (this is more of an issue in comparison to the later volumes) Again, a big part of their relationship has to do with his warped perception of love, and yes, he is learning what it means to be with someone in a not shitty, sadistic, sex-driven way lol but his personality felt like it was chalked up to "well! hes just kinda fucked up" and like, ok. Then why isnt this more of an issue then? I dont know!! They make me go crazy

There are some really interesting/and heartwarming parts in this series, (especially in the sequel) and I think it can be worth getting through if the first couple chapters arent an immediate drop for you. Honestly, the psychosexual aspect could've been really interesting too! but I do think there's some inconsistency in the tone that's too confusing and unresolved, ... So essentially, it is good...but at what cost? I don't know.

Very refreshing depiction of a queer family! The conflicts didn't feel unnecessary or cheap. I personally appreciate how it shows a genuine/realistic relationship and the hardships that come with being a same sex couple, (and how these 2 queer men perceive their sexuality in their own way) but it also just talks about parent/adulthood in general, what does it mean to be a ‘good parent?’ etc Still lighthearted in general despite those topics,, the baby is soooo cute (ɔ˘ ³(ˆ‿ˆc)

I think I probably would have enjoyed it more as a longer series but still nice regardless :>
If you're looking for a quick, wholesome ... read with a nice artstyle i would recommend!

Im honestly confused on how to feel about this manga, I think it has a good premise, 2 love interests who are honest about their feelings and intentions from the start and work through their issues together, and the romantic scenes and such are what you expect from your usual shoujo, its got a good amount of humor too. But i don't really get what the author has in mind for the male lead, Hananoi anymore.

Hananoi has a messed up perception of love/self worth and in his own way is trying to be better about opening up and not be overbearing/toxic, but he's essentially ... being re-socialized through his high school girlfriend? That wouldn't be that big of a deal if his attachment to her didn't come across as a genuine mental illness. This isn't a 'dig' at him, i'm just at a point in this story (ch 39-41) where I would rather read about him getting professional help because his behavior is unacceptable.

I guess the point of his character/their relationship is essentially supposed to be 'everyone deserved to be loved, and learn how to love' (in a healthy way) regardless of baggage, but we've gotten this far and his form of 'love' is still at the expense of others so now what? Having good intentions or feeling genuine affection for someone cannot make up for shitty behavior. I understand to an extent he cannot change overnight and is pretty self aware of his shortcomings, but I cant root for them completely because it feels like if they remain together he's only going to keep relying on her as his only sense of happiness and learn nothing, and thats not good for either of them in the long run.

I might be being a bit harsh, I do think its enjoyable overall and im sure plenty of people overlook the conflict for the sake of the romance, but i genuinely hope Hananoi's character is addressed properly.

EDIT 6/28/23: i decided to catch up after i took a break from reading this, I will say that my concerns did more or less get addressed! Hasanoi gets called out by several characters and is learning that a support system that isn't composed of only your girlfriend is good (lol) however, not completely satisfied with how his fuck-up wasnt treated as seriously as it could have been. Like i understand that at the end of the day this is a shoujo and its gonna be a little silly and corny at times, but this manga does take itself pretty seriously! so i wish it touched more on the aspect of how scary thinking someone you care about could be unsafe to be around. Again i appreciate this newfound realization that Hananoi can rely on other people, but i still think he need like. people that arent teenagers to give him advice lol.

Point is, this really isnt for everyone! but i do think its at least an interesting read.