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Ok, I live for edgy/dark manga (and anything else really), so when I heard everyone making a big deal about this title, I had to read it.

My expectations were set pretty high because of all the hype surrounding the series, which probably impacted my judgement in a negative way, as it did not completely live up to that hype.

I love the premise of the story. It's definitely original and I haven't seen many other hentai that have tried to be anything other than mindless smut. Which I don't mind, but it can get boring.

However, this attempt at realism is also the series' downfall for me.

The ... main character's mindset towards life and other people doesn't make sense to me. How willingly she trusts complete strangers. How attached she becomes to these men who abuse her. How much she loves sex right from the beginning. None of this makes sense in a character coming from her background and especially for her age.

I guess we don't get to see much of her life before her descent into substance abuse begins. From what is provided, she seems to have a pretty normal home life. Her dad gets creepy when she gets a makeover, true. But, before then it doesn't seem like she's been through anything particularly traumatic or unusual.

Someone coming from an average background like that doesn't seem like the type to suddenly go all the way with an older stranger and take E.

And even if you are high, I really don't think losing your virginity like that would be pleasurable at all.

The reactions she gets from the drugs she takes don't really make sense. It seems to be written by someone who didn't do much research on any of the drugs used throughout the series. They just seem to be working with cliches surrounding the drugs in question.

Also, you don't really get to see the lowest parts that come with substance abuse. True, you get to see what she's willing to put her body through overtime & how other people ramp up their abuse towards her. But, you don't get to see her own personal mental breakdowns. There's not any exploration of the relationship she has with herself. If you're someone who is living that kind of lifestyle, those moments are a HUGE part of the cycle of addiction. The only thing close to that is what happens at the very end of the series.

I guess, as far as hentai goes, yes this one of the more realistic and darker ones out there that I know of. It's unique and refreshing. However, it could have gone further with it and made it even more messed up.

You could argue that 'hey this is hentai, what do you expect?' Maybe there needed to be the right balance of realism and fantasy. Idk, I'm not a writer lol. For me, it would have enhanced my experience with it. I'm not sure how other people may feel about that. It's clear this work has managed to leave a mark on people just the way it is, and that's the important thing.

Overall, I would recommend other people to read it. Not to get some insight on how drug addiction works in real life. Not to get off to either, unless you're full on sadist. Read it because you probably haven't read anything like it before & you're tired of reading the same old boring cliches in every other hentai/manga.