Bokura no Koi wa Shi ni Itaru Yamai no You de

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The grave mistake here is that this manga isn't correctly tagged as psychological—which it should be. Yet even without that tag, it almost requires a warning label. There is a high chance it will make your stomach churn, why? Because this manga portrays an abusive relationship—one built on hate, guilt, repression, and resentment. The foundation of their relationship is deceit, which makes it rocky and unstable. This series neither excuses nor glorifies the abuse, however, if only because the abuse is so apparent and outrageous that it's impossible for you not to feel squicky about it.

There is no denying that Umi is sick and twisted. ... What he does and how he treats Beniko is inexcusable to any ordinary human being. Yet the more sadistic he treats her, the more pleasure she starts to derive from it. This doesn't make her a consenting individual, of course, but there is development between them in the way you would expect of a seriously twisted psychological romance.

While it's easy to pass Beniko off as “weak” and “indecisive,” I would more so say that as a product of her own grief and guilt, for the sake of her own sanity, she accommodates Umi's sadism through necessity by becoming a masochist. The whole point of this being a psychological manga is to look deeper than the face value, which can be difficult when it's easy to feel so disgusted by both of the main characters.

The art does an amazing job of portraying the emotions, and the frames and dialogue are as creepy as Umi himself. There is a psychological feel to the manga that leaves you groping for answers—for better or worse, it never really sates your curiosity completely. Is that perhaps plot holes that the mangaka carelessly left behind, or legitimate parts of the manga that are left up to the viewer's interpretation?

This is a difficult manga to rate only on account of it having nearly illegible scans for the last volume, which made the ambiguities even more ambiguous. That said, it's easy to write this off as a crappy shoujo romance—if that's all it is intended to be. But what it's supposed to be may all depend on what kind of mindset you approach it with. Is it an intriguing psychological romance with a sick, twisted relationship that can only be defined as “love”? Or is it just another series that glorifies abuse?

R +18 (lol)

Okay, this manga should have the psychological genre tag in it. Plus, the sexual scenes almost worked perfectly with the psychological impact this manga gives (every chapter has it).

There were some things that pissed me off, though. It was too predictable, the ending felt rushed and that main character was a slut (just had to say it).

The reasons for the guy's actions are way too obvious and it feels like the manga is giving away the ending already. Unfortunately, it did end the way I predicted, though the "action" in the ending was unexpected and giving me WTF thoughts at the same time. ... Somehow, it gives me the impression of a rushed ending. It doesn't make enough sense to me.

As for the MC, she pissed me off big time in the ending. I'm not looking for a surprising/shocking type of ending (might be cool though). I get that "she got abused and liked it" kind of plot, but that ending broke my image of the MC. She just becomes as twisted as the abuser.

6/10 because the art was nice, the characters were fairly depicted (disregarding the ending here) story development kept me wanting the next chapter, and it gave me a hanging question of "Why was it his fault anyway?"

Ok, I NEVER give manga's bad reviews like this, but this.. this manga was just horrible. God it makes my stomach turn. The insanity in Deadman Wonderland was nothing like this. Oh and SPOILERRSS
Story-6
Ok, the story is ok. Basically Beniko, the heroine, her boyfriend, whom she loved very much, dies and even before he died, she began having dreams of his brother Umi. I will express my hate from Umi in the character section. Anyways, she starts thinking of Umi and then after her boyfriend passes, Umi becomes a huge.. *censored* She's very indecisive if she likes him or not, and its very quick after ... her boyfriends death.. Oh, god, Umi hate will come up.
Art-9
The art was very good and detailed, Umi is kind of a insane character so the detailed work on him fits him perfectly. Beniko is pretty average, but Her boyfriend Sora and Umi are actually quite good looking.
Character-4
The heroine is so pathetic and weak, she totally lets Umi do whatever he wants to her. She lets him do things like sexually harassing her and yet she actually somewhat enjoys it even though her boyfriend JUST died. Sora was such a caring, sweet, lovable person, too bad he goes. Umi.. oh my god, Umi. I cannot stand him. He is so manipulative and he just makes my stomach turn. He basically manipulates Beniko by acting like Sora and he uses this as a pass to harm her in many ways, and Beniko is just so torn up inside, but she doesn't do anything about Umi. Umi is just a plain out psycho, his character is just awful. If you read the manga, you will understand.
Enjoyment-5
Although i do hate Umi, he does keep it suspenseful. Other than that, this manga makes me depressed. It's so sad to see even a drawn character be torn to pieces like that.