THIS IS A MANGA ONLY DISCUSSION POST. DO NOT DISCUSS ANYTHING BEYOND THIS CHAPTER.
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I have fallen in love in two chapters. I'll talk about this post in three sections. First, Sugawara and Kazusa’s interaction here. Sugawara says that she will die soon and she wants to experience the thing all these books talk about, inadvertently proving Hongou does not emote on the outside ever amongst the others shock! However, Hongou seemed to take note of that idea with her “ah”. As for Sugawara leaving, she mentioned something that reminded me of The Strongest Man Kurosawa’s “sunset of your life” where he does something very similar. Here she looked sad to me and said that if human history is 11 minutes of a year of earth’s history than she is already dust in the grand scheme of things. She is minute or meaningless. Is it justification for contentness with a disease? Is it justification for a suicide? I’m not so sure, but Kazusa’s response got to me. She chased her initially then went along with it and didn’t push further. She let her leave. I have gotten used to strong protagonists in most of the manga I read, it's been a long time since I read about somebody like Kazusa. The way she gave a half answer to Izumi or doesn’t confront her bullies or here how she didn’t have a drive to act or push forward and instead awkwardly accepted what had happened illuminate the difference. Yet, kids aren’t strong and I find her deeply relatable in everything she does. I have grown to value resolve in decisions, to declare without hesitation how I feel and to fight for what I want. But that wasn’t always the case. It’s sad and nice to read someone who I can see so much of my past and current self in.
Sugawara’s words were said to send everyone into disorder and that would include the hard to read Hongou. But it especially broke Sonezaki. She screamed at those girls in revolt against their sexuality. This scene encompassed two things I found relatable but I didn’t find a good time to mention last thread. One is the diversity everybody holds in a school environment. I remember having a younger student in my school walk by me talking out loud about how the guy she was flirting with may have gotten her pregnant and she said it so casually. I was so taken aback, I felt weird talking to people about sexuality in a private environment. All these loud people talking about having sex and the casts reactions are not foreign to me. The other thing is how bullies are so cruel in this as that’s how it is in real life too. Kids can be evil and like I was saying with how I relate to Kazusa, it took me until later into my highschool life to fight back. I responded like Sonezaki did here or how Kazusa did in middle school.
As for what went down, Sonezaki fighting back was obviously unfairly spiteful but it does show she has a fight in her even if it’s seemingly only on the surface. When the class started to call her unpopular and ugly openly and we got that full page of her starting to cry, unable to speak back anymore I was so sad. That’s a brilliant page, letting us sit with that emotion and pain of hers as she tightens her grip. And then that sadness was redeemed by that boy coming to her side. Amagi felt genuine and bold and his friends treated him weird because of it. I think he does like her despite how I was concerned he would be a bully tricking her at first. Her inability to accept those words and her glare back at him was so cute. I do think she appreciated it though, as much as she tries to negate her new feelings, she has them too. Great stuff.
And if that was all I would have been fully okay with that being a great chapter. But there was more! For a smaller moment but one that really warms my heart, it’s Mocchin and Kazusa’s sisterhood. Last chapter showed they were there for each other, and here when they embraced after realizing they’re in these feelings together shouting “my comrade!” like their last hug was so sweet. That of course led to overhearing about Izumi and wanting him to have not changed. He doesn’t eat carrots or read porn, he reads train time-tables! The thing is, he can be both!! He doesn’t have to lose what made him who he is, he’s feeling new things too. That said, I feel by showing the Izumi that grew up like a little brother to her as someone watching porn and doing erotic things it makes her ackowledge that her world has changed. She can’t just reject it or avoid it. It may be why she didn’t acknowledge what had happened while in shock until Izumi did. For more evidence, it did prompty lead to her thinking about his now grown topknot “going in” like that train. Poor Kazusa, this so so traumatizing for her... Amazing sequence by the way. I love the huge panels and time it takes to get through everything. Page 27-35 was spent on that awkward interaction and her starting to run, and last chapter had that glorious sequence when Sugawara suggested “sex”. The art and page composition are cute and effective and great for sitting on emotions. |