I do not know why I'm here but it said leave a message and so I will. And yes I'm quite the stalker tbh. I don't know why I like stalking other people's profile and such. Oh while I'm here I'm going to give a recommendation on a manga called All You Need is Kill. The sypnosis is like Happy Death Day. Having to relive the same day over and over again but this time the main character is in a war. Might want to give an online dessert as a visiting gift but I'm too lazy. >~< Could I also tell about myself?
I just wanted to talk to somebody because I'm lonely and I don't really talk to my friends online. It just feels weird and not my kind of thing. But I am also quite quiet in my class because every time I tried to talk to my friends they wouldn't really acknowledge me. I've also had fake friends. Two of them. One when I was 5th grade and one when I was 6th grade. And because of that I am scared to make friends. Theres also one other reason. I also got bullied too. I was bullied because I was fat and big.( Even though I wasn't even that big, I was quite tall) I also got bullied because I was spending too much time with my best friend instead of my friend. And another one is because they were jealous that I was good in English and drawing. And on 5th grade, I had to leave my best friend. My only best friend that I ever had. I always transferred schools. But that one is the most painful one. And so I don't really trust people that much now. I was terrified that the same thing is going to happen again. Anime accepted me when I was lonely. I was quite relieved about that. The memory of people betraying me has been always following me. I have to admit, I'm smart but I feel a bit miserable to have friends. Especially another best friend. I'm scared to lose them again. I cry every time I remembered that. Okay I think that's enough about me. I just wanted to let that out. To have have someone I could cry on their shoulder.
@SweetalenoneGeez spare me stalker-chan :D i don't even public this club Haha i do some stalking in my free time to and earn more block and awkward response than you might think ^^ Oh i watch happy death day both movie part. And i think All You Need is Kill is kinda good cause i watched Egde of Tomorrow kinda live-action of it. I had a good time :D with all ground hog day stuffs.
Haha you can of course... i love listening to people!
Yo i don't judge or try to be a wise man, in fact i'm not and i'm lonely weeb too at least for now! So this is just my opinion, internet stranger opinion :P
I had same problem like you around your age tho, not like i know your situation but base on what you told me, i can find similarity. I had communication problem and weight kinda thing too, was bullied because of my voice and weight, transferred to other side of country,... so I know it is a serious problem to you (to me to back at the day too). But after all i passed those kind of phase integrity with help of others both parent and friends. So if something happen you should share more to them, even though they're bad at understand the situation, i think they will give you a hand if you let them. And ask for teacher advice sometime help i guess :|
Yo we are too sentimental :D but one more thing: Don't label people fake even if they are fake, at least they tried and most of the time people do stupid thing at young age. Me and some of my friend too, i bullied someone, some of my friend bullied me (drop pants and head smack me :/ geez we was bad kids back then)... Just treat people as the way you want people to treat you and enjoy moments you're having with them right now even "fake friends", and with bully just talk to them and try to make them smile, you cant bully someone make you smile tho. If you meet me in real life you could call me "fake" cause i always try to smile and listen to anybody i met, zone-out when you want to talk about something and avoid you at the second meet,... some people just like that terrible at communication. To me nothing last forever so does the friendship but moments created cause of it stay long (till you get Alzheimer :|) haha just be open like you do with me and you will have friends. Although i'm lonely right now i can still say i met some of the greatest person on the world.
Yo i will give meme slip soon cause you so depress and i don't like sad puppy face :D haha don't need to reply this message, it's kinda long and reply long message take oxy out of ya brain especially weird kind of message i gave you xD