Re:Zero kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu 2nd Season Episode 12 Discussion

I'm rewatching this season again right now, and once again I still don't get Subaru's reaction to Echidna...

She's only been helpful thus far, and though she has ulterior motives, he's interested in her powers & using her far more than what she's getting out of it. She just gets to experience & watch over everything he goes through, and he gets all her knowledge, experience, help making choices, and even her love if he wants.

He wants to save everyone, and she's offering him the ultimate ally & ace up his sleeve which could help against every adversary he faces (which are always way more powerful than him). He could save Rem, Emilia, and everyone else he cares about. He can outsmart/outmaneuver Roswaal, he could help Beatrice. The potential to achieve all of his goals is being offered, but he flips the F out because he has to give something in return (which is really just allowing Echidna to be a part of the experience)?

Like why does he expect all of this for free? It's an exchange, a very one-sided exchange in his favor, but an exchange nonetheless.

Does he think all of this can be achieved with no sacrifices aside from him just dying a bunch? I thought all the deaths & seeing his friends suffer & die repeatedly (and now potentially living on in those worlds past the point in which he dies) was mentally breaking him. But he thinks THAT is a better road to continue going down then this?

It's not like she's saying he has to sacrifice the ones he loves or anything. And he was open to the idea, but what did he expect her to want from him? He's got literally nothing to offer of value beyond his ability to restart after death. In past episodes he said he'd pay any cost or whatever to see Echidna & speak to her again, but now THIS is too much?

Obviously she has her own objectives, but if the end result aligns with what you're trying to do, why is it such a big deal? Beyond that topic, he could just say "no, not interested," but instead he does another Subaru tirade where he rips into a character for no reason & talks her up as the biggest monster ever while hurling insults. Wtf.

He treats Otto badly every time Otto tries to help or say something kind. He rips into Beatrice when she saves his life, even though he pretends he cares so much about her. He's just a prick who is extremely selfish, trampling over other peoples' feelings while acting entitled to things. I dunno, I'm starting to really not care much about him.