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my philosophy is rooted in a fascination with the boundaries of perception, the role of individuality, and the relationship between self and the universe. i believe that what we consider “individuality” is actually a construct—a result of our subjective experiences, filtered through conscious awareness and language. to me, this process of forming the self started when humanity metaphorically “bit from the fruit of knowledge,” when we began to divide the world into concepts and symbols that let us make sense of it, yet also isolate us from its unified whole. i see individuality as an elaborate misperception, an act of separating oneself from the vast, coherent entirety of existence—a totality that i would call “God” or the “will of all.”
i see the universe as following specific laws and principles, an intricate system where everything is determined, where each cause has an effect in an unbroken chain. theoretically, this means everything is predestined in a sense. but within that rigid framework, there’s a strange freedom: humanity’s “sin” of self-perception and individuality, which allows us to make art. art, to me, is more than a creative act; it’s a way of validating subjective experiences, of giving form to our misperceptions. through art, we take what we feel and see and transform it into expressions that, paradoxically, shape reality. in that way, art becomes a way of “proving” our subjective truths, even if those truths are not ultimate. art bends perception, and thus reality, to our will, making it as fluid and ever-changing as the human experience.
when i think about collective identity, i don’t limit it to the societal sense of community or belonging. it’s something cosmic, the inherent “oneness” of everything. i imagine it as a drop that began expanding, like a circle growing outward and radiating infinitely in all directions. what drives that expansion? i’d call it the “will of all,” a universal energy made up of countless individual wills, yet which ultimately represents a unified, singular drive. it’s this collective will that guides the expansion of existence itself, from the birth of stars to the smallest human actions. while individuality and selfhood are valuable experiences, they are, in my view, distortions of a deeper, universal whole.
language, particularly languages like english, plays a fascinating role here. unlike languages with more intrinsic connections to meaning, english is a language of constructed forms—words that rely on syntax, grammar, and interpretation to convey meaning rather than inherent content. this makes it versatile, a tool capable of expressing infinite ideas from a single starting point. in this way, i see language as a kind of double-edged sword. it allows us to form and communicate ideas, to isolate truths, but it also limits us by breaking the world into arbitrary units, moving us further from the universal “will of all” and into the realm of constructed, often illusory, perceptions. i think language simultaneously connects us to and distances us from deeper truths, allowing us to express a version of reality, but not reality itself.
ultimately, my philosophy is about exploring this balance between the individual and the universal. i think humanity’s obsession with the self and the personal often pulls us away from a coherent whole that transcends us. i feel we’re drifting further from this unity, growing more isolated in our constructed worlds, bound by subjective perceptions and personal truths that keep us from fully understanding the vast, interconnected “will of all.” it’s why i find myself in the gray, between truth and perception, individuality and unity, exploring a worldview that seeks to reconcile the two without fully belonging to either.
in everything—from my studies of language to my explorations of philosophy, art, and the nature of reality itself—i’m trying to understand how to live in this space between, this intersection of subjective experience and universal coherence.
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tryna immerse but half the movie is in fucking english lmaooooo good thing they have the shittily translated jp subs ig lol