I'm leaving MAL for undetermined time.
Thank you everyone for all the good moments.
If i ever come back, i hope our bonds stay as strong as before, because for me, all the friends i made here, are really special.
Hope anyone reading this, stay well, and be happy.
May our path's cross once more in the future.
If you want to know more about me, my old profile is in the 2nd spoiler button bellow, just as it was when i left MAL.
If you want to know a bit more about me by the moment i'm leaving MAL, i prepared some of the musics with the lyrics that best motivate me, that i relate the most, and that always cheer me up.
See ya around.
I got on a ship with no compass, wanting to rely on my own self-confidence
I traveled faster than anyone else so no one would get in my way
The gusting wind threw off my balance; I was swallowed by the rough waves and fell into the sea
It hurt to look at the sun I faintly glimpsed
But as if mesmerized, I chased after it
Mustering my strength, I faced my life
I timed my breathing to find infinite power
Because he's shining for me too, I'll keep going forward
Look, rather than lashing out, I'll pull out of that rough orbit and keep going
With the sun lighting the world, I keep living
Since I found a compass, my confidence grew
Refusing to lose to the me of yesterday, I'll become a "me" who won't lose to anyone
The flames of weakness and fear burned strongly; "Your cowardly self is annoying," I said
But your light was so strong, I had to avert my eyes as I muttered my dissatisfaction
Mustering my strength, I faced my life
I timed my breathing to find infinite power
Because you were shining for me too, I kept going forward
Even if it seems trivial, I won't act defiantly
As he also lights the world, I'll keep living with him
In some era, perhaps in the future, going at it alone will break us
I need to tell you; having finally realized this for myself, I need to tell you
Misunderstandings, prejudices, and mental abuse are insignificant things, so I'll laugh them off
Understanding! Determination! ...Dawn is breaking; eventually the rising sun will show its face
The rising sun
Mustering my strength, I face my life,
Timing my breathing to find infinite power
Because he's shining on me, I'll keep going forward
Look, rather than lashing out, I'll pull out of that rough orbit and keep going
With him as the light of the world, I'll keep living
Mustering my strength, I face my life
Timing my breathing to find infinite power
Because he's shining for me, I keep going forward
Look, rather than lashing out, even if it seems trivial, I won't act defiantly
With him as the sun that lights the world, I'll keep living with him
How long have I been pretending
That I've forgotten how to dream?
Without any courage to open a tiny window
I waited for a miracle
I no longer have the innocence like I had
On that day when I hadn't lost anything, but
After I wipe away my tears
I'll be able to meet a new me
Even if I lose everything, there's something I can discover, so
One day, my indelible wounds
I'll be able to turn into my own kind of pride
I was always afraid of
The endless and invisible future
The scenery that changes when I start to walk
Will shine with light
You cannot erase your solitude, but I'm sure
You can share it with others
Nobody is all alone, so
I'll smile and be able to grow strong again
That's why when I'm lost, I'll remember the sky I saw once
And the answer I've been searching for
Will be in that place I dreamed of
After I wipe away my tears
I'll be able to meet a new me
Even if I lose everything, there's something I can discover, so
I'll never give up again
Nobody is all alone, so
I'll smile and be able to grow strong again
That's why when I'm lost, I'll remember the sky I saw once
And the answer I've been searching for
Will be in that place I dreamed of
A single teardrop falls down your cheeks while you look down and laugh
Behind your bold front
You hide your sighs; your smile is clouded over
and like glass shattered into pieces
It stabs right into me
It’s okay to show the pain in your heart
I’ve been saved
by your smile time and time again
So you may cry for now
Because I’ll always be here
You lose sight of the dawn that you chased after
I still haven’t forgotten now
that you were always by my side
when I got lost and looked back
Even if you didn’t say anything
I can hardly say this in words
While time is the only thing that passes by heartlessly
I’ve been saved
by your smile time and time again
So you may cry for now
Because I’ll always be here
Because I’ll just be here
Until you lift up your downcast face and smile
Born into the world, each enjoying his own life, discovering the black box in his head...is this bliss?
The important thing is to surpass your limit line. Shall we go? Take your step, and outdo yourself today!
But what should we do with our days? Trying to live flawlessly is a big no no.
Stop! Observe thoroughly the flow of the world! Ignore everything else, and here we go!
If I try to suppress my heart, which is burning hot about things that are unobtainable or constrained,
how am I different from those adults, whom I have come to despise and will never forgive
for their constant attempt to pin me down blindly without even understanding why?
No matter what I do, it'll probably forever remain a pipe dream that will never come true,
but the fire burning in my heart cannot be doused by anyone.
Even if the black rain falling from the sky drenches me completely and doesn't stop,
I will never allow the fire in my heart to be extinguished. That, is my "pride".
It started pouring, as predicted. A lot more buddies gathered around than I had expected.
While talking about one another's days and futures, we became impassioned and started a fist fight.
Thinking back about how we were also fist-fighting the same way
back when we were only 15, as a means to quell our anxiety and uneasiness,
you laughed and said, "You haven't changed a bit..." So I ended up bursting into laughter as well.
If we don't stubbornly stand our ground like this, even the flow of time will become a scary thing.
The only true opponent whom I should hit is really my prideful self.
But still, I don't want to lose right now. I have "pride" not to lose to myself.
Stop! Observe thoroughly the flow of the world! Ignore everything else, and here we go!
Stop! Observe thoroughly the flow of the world! Ignore everything else, and here we go!
No matter what I do, when I'm alone at night, I become even unable to understand myself.
When you're with me, and we try to understand each other, then I'll be able to become stronger.
I don't care how things turn out, and I don't care if I'll look uncool,
I will desperately try to change my future.
Even If I'm told that my destiny is immutable no matter what I do,
I myself can still change, and I will prove to you that I can change myself.
This is, that's right, "pride", each in its own place...
Don't perish yet, the fire in my heart.
I don't want to forget yet, the heat in my chest.
Don't perish yet, the fire in my heart.
I can still keep going, so here I go!
Running in a crowd,
In a faceless town,
I need to feel the touch of a friend.
In the countryside,
I wander far and wide.
The isolation gets me again.
I don't know where to go
When I feel like crying,
"Oh my!"
It's time to open myself,
Do something new,
I want to stop and grow up a bit.
Then suddenly, my power and confidence start swelling up,
Magically erupt.
And it's all because of the kindness that I feel
From people I don't even know.
Then suddenly, my intuition and my wisdom grow,
And then I know
That most of all I sense compassion's real
Thanks to strangers where ever I go.
Thank you for waking me up!
Until now, how many times I've tried
to tell you "please take care of yourself".
Then with tear-stained eyes, I sadly said "Good-bye"
as I waved and wished you "Farewell".
Then I think of how
how much longer I must wait.
I look inside myself,
And feel something new,
I want to stop and grow up a bit
It's all because, I'm feeling sad
and then I cry, I don't know why
The courage that I need, the power to succeed
Gives me the strength to fly
It's all because of when I see my friends, oh my
Every time,
They're always behind me pushing me on,
lighting the fire in me (Fire in me!)
Then suddenly, my power and confidence start swelling up,
Magically erupt.
And it's all because of the kindness that I feel
From people I don't even know.
I won't forget, the times we shared on those pleasant days,
Always.
And I'll never lose the strength to succeed,
The courage to do what I must.
Your smile makes my heart explode!
There's a dazzling light spilling from the murky clouds.
As though it has shone through my weakness, I instantly reached out to it.
Numerous times, I pretended to give up just out of envy,
Lost and confused, over and over, in my swinging emotions.
Though you say it's painful,
All of us have no choice but to keep walking forward, on and on,
Even if it means wandering the world in doubt and woes,
I'd love to see the future that awaits us.
Rid your heart of regret and fear.
Close them in your fingers,
And crush them to smithereens.
Feel the pain and venture on to that endless, ever-moving dream.
Though I know the world by heart, it seems there is nothing I could see.
I was never sure if I had chosen the right path.
Though I've always acted cheerful, my smile is undercut with loneliness.
And I wonder how I am really feeling inside.
Though you say it's sorrowful, it's as if we have another way
But keep on searching, forever and ever, for that certain something we long for.
Just fight on, give your all, struggle to it,
And surely the doors will open to a shining tomorrow.
Never stand still when you're lost!
Just go on; I'm sure it leads back your path, somewhere somehow.
Don't ever run away.
And you will feel hope softly touching your heart,
When you finally reach that never-ending dream
Either you're backing away in fear,
Or swelling with vain pride,
You could just try throwing them all away.
And now, let us all start over again!
Though you say it's painful,
All of us have no choice but to keep walking another step,
Even if it means wandering, drifting without a clue,
I'd love to see the future that awaits us.
Rid your heart of all misgivings.
Close them in your fingers and crush them to smithereens.
Feel the pain; carve it upon your heart;
Believe in yourself! I know you really can do better.
Let's head to that forever moving dream.
Why the sky is so blue
Like it does not know any sadness
It keeps crumbling towards tomorrow without hesitation
Life was born with something missing to begin with
There are also things that are full of pain
This runaway heart is touched by you
Two of us walk the future
With stainless strength
The sky is high with the wind singing
To the joy
Of having dreams
People will arrive one day
Such faith is in your childlike eyes
I am right by your side
We get out of the freezing forest
So that your eyes will not be deceived
By the world's grief
Why only the light that does not reach here
Always carries dazzling righteous more than anything
Towards hopeless tomorrow to judge people
I tried to gently touch your cold back
I do not believe the world's kindness
Therefore I was kinder than anyone else
I having been living towards the future
Leaving wind behind in the sky
I wonder where dreams are idling at
Everyone was gone before I realize it
I move back to this shore
Believing that I will get used to the fragments of light
The thoughts of returning to darkness
Have been burned out
That light is my guide
That the world is still having dreams
The sky is high with the wind singing
The memory of your dream
Your scream
Is making
Gentle echoes
Never forget your first dream.
Continue the chase! Keep holding on!
Broken dreams I couldn't reach and almost gave up on,
A promise deserted.
Your words that are stuck in my heart and can't pull out;
I've been repeating them over and over.
And, now, the wind is pushing at my back.
Get Up! My burning heart is about to explode!
Cast aside these times reborn
Precious Time! Glory Days!
You've only got one life to live
Paint this faded world red!
Take a chance! Shout it loud!
In a style all your own!
Never forget your first dream!
Continue the chase! Keep holding on!
Past times lying behind the barrier I pieced together,
The rusted, blood-red sky.
I want to be proud now for myself tomorrow,
so I'm gonna run till I collapse.
Dreams are still beyond mirages.
Look out! Don't take your eyes off that shooting star!
Set your confined heart free!
Precious time! Glory days!
I'll fly towards you.
A dying passion breathes again.
Take a chance! Shout it loud!
One more try & No more cry.
Never forget your first dream!
Continue the chase! Keep holding on!
Sooner or later, our souls will stumble across another.
Wake up! Naked heart!
Open your eyes, right now!
Cast aside these times reborn
Precious Time! Glory Days!
You've only got one life to live
Paint this faded world red!
Take a chance! Shout it loud!
In a style all your own!
Never forget your first dream!
Continue the chase! Keep holding on!
Never forget your first dream!
We won't let this end!
Keep holding on!
So the little infant fell into a deep sleep.
Among the grey ashes the flames exhibit life force...First one, then two ...
Making shapes of the profile of your lovely face
The vast land filled with thousands of dreams, dreams
On the night when the silver eyes were trembling, the shining you was born
Across millions of years, no matter how many prayers have already returned back to the ground
I will still continue to pray
Please bestow upon this child your love
Upon our joined hands, leave a gentle kiss
So the little infant fell into a deep sleep.
Among the grey ashes the flames exhibit life force...First one,then two ...
Making shapes of the profile of your lovely face
The vast land filled with thousands of dreams, dreams
On the night when the silver eyes were trembling, the shining you was born
Across millions of years, no matter how many prayers have already returned back to the ground
I will still continue to pray
Please bestow upon this child your love
Upon our joined hands, leave a gentle kiss
I will still continue to pray
Please bestow upon this child your love
Upon our joined hands, leave a gentle kiss
Please watch from the Video.
Sunlight, I awaken from a dream; the light of the morning
Shines again (all over my sight)
On this world
Carrying this interrupted promise all alone
This yesterday behind my eyes (it's over my blind)
Is all that I chased
Stay high -- I had forgotten
This clear blue sky
Surely, you gave me
This true-feeling brilliance
Even if someday the strength with which you're holding my hand becomes painful
I definitely won't let go
Dear friends
Like this forever
Stray days -- how many times did we look up at the same moon
The same good-bye (We told you so long)
Is what we overcame
I should have known that it was the jewel granted by pain
But the lost light (You told me what's wrong)
Is all I counted
Stay high -- if you look
Through the window, there's a dazzling blue sky
Surely the door to tomorrow
(Still green) Is opening
Even if someday the passage of time changes everything
I definitely won't lose
You
I'll lead the brand new days
Sunlight, I awaken from a dream; the light of the morning
Then shines out (it's all up to you)
On this world
There are days when I tire of calling out the meaning of my life, and my head droops
But still, in my heart (So look up to you)
Is your smile
Stay high -- I had forgotten
This clear blue sky
Surely, you gave me
This true-feeling brilliance
When I wake from a dream, I can meet
A new tomorrow
I definitely believe that
Your faith
Always, forever
Stay high -- if you look
Through the window, there's a dazzling blue sky
Surely, the door to tomorrow
(Still green) Is open
New days, graduation can be heard in the spring breeze
From now on, true days
Towards the future when I can meet you
I'll lead the brand new days
A new miracle begins from here, a shining place, hey, once again, with you...
And this is the last one...
One day, i hope that i come back here, and meet all of those that are important to me again and am able to smile with them.
Here i made so many good memories, but right now, i'm not able to stay, i'm currently lost and struggling to find what is really important to me.
Here i met a person who made me experience the best moments of my life, and for this person, i just wish happiness and peace, i hope one day we can be close again.
May the pain, the suffering, and the loneliness never reach that person, may this person family be blessed and just positive and good things be drawed to them.
I will never forget you.
As for my other friends, all of you were the most interesting people i had the pleasure of meeting.
Each one of you, unique, different, those who i got close here, were truly one of a kind.
Thank you for letting me be close to you, for you spending your time with me, and creating such good moments that i will always treasure.
Be it in the forum games, be it in the comments or the countless PM's that were exchanged without anyone ever knowing.
For you my friend, the one reading this, remember that both the good and the bad times pass, nothing stays forever.
One day i hope to meet you again and see just how much we improved.
for all my friends who read up until now, know that the friendship created between us, is not bound by time or space.
I will always remain friendly to those who were my friends, to those who i meet here and passed through such a good time.
Even if we fought, bullied each other, mocked each other, we never stopped having fun with our wild fantasies in this place right?
So this will always be my treasure from here.
And if someone who doesn't know me, is reading this.
Maybe one day we can meet, and talk.
Good luck for all of us.
(***)
The song I can hear makes my heart shake
My heart is scraped away
While I am naked I feel the illusion
It passes through my heart
A girl who is always hungry walks alone
Because she hates to smile at the same second as others
In order to not lose the word 'love'
An angel slowly fluttered down
(**)
Soon I'll smile for you
Soon I'll sing for you
In that moment when a girl becomes a woman
To keep the light from going out
In the wild river there is a dreaming ugly duckling
Surely it desires a true face as it removes the mask of its heart
All of a sudden as if it were given white wings
The light is released from a falling star
(*)
Soon I'll smile for you
Soon I'll sing for you
Gazing at a dream that shines forever
So that I can keep walking and living
Look, love is right here
Winged intention in my chest
The girl will walk again
To a road that never ends
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Big F.
Hope you return soon.
Happy Birthday! :)
Hope things go well with you man
*Waving hand and smiling to him that is hiding and peeping behind a wall*
Quite cute :)