too lazy to add more to my watched/read lists. maybe will do it later. MAYBE
forgetful
gamer
role player
twisted sense of humor YOU'VE BEEN WARNED
cusses like a god damn mother fucking sailor
does mixed martial arts (currently training in bjj, muay thai, kick boxing and capoeria)
A lot of people are probably skeptic about my characters list because of my age, allow me to explain.
Ja'far, Hideyoshi, and Juuzuo are all at least 18 by the time the series ends and are extremely attractive imo. Honey just missed the cut off being 17 during the series. T_T damn legality factor. Kaneki has got to be my fav as far as his story goes. Kid's got a lot forcefully thrust on his shoulders (the same can be said for Kohaku) and (Kaneki) handles it rather well. Kohaku kinda just wallows in pain and rage which I know all too well. As for as for Shippo, Souta, and Aladdin who wouldn't want a cute lil brother figure? It's lonely growing up an only child, aside from that being a father is something I want for myself.
When I say that I know pain I'm not just being an edgy douche. From an early age I've been verbally and mentally abused by those who were supposed to protect me, and even was molested by a family member. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 12, and schizophrenia at 15 which has in the past lead to suicide attempts. Since then I've learned to cope in my own way and stopped taking medications for the disorders. I still have recurring night terrors which make sleep a rare event and usually wake up paralyzed and in serious and indescribable amounts of pain because of this. No medications help this.
Why do I share this deeply personal information? Simple, because of all the shit that's happened in my life I feel the only way to truly connect with a person on any level is to understand their struggles, their story, and their state of mind. Even tho I will admit I do sometimes have a problem communicating with other people and establishing trust because of what happened.
Anything else you'de like to know feel free to ask, I'm fairly open as you can tell if you read the spoiler.
I have a lot of stories but not really interesting ones, mostly just stupid stuff as a kid. I don't know much about that so I guess you know what you're doing for the most part not getting burned, I used to play with fire as a kid which almost started a big fire at somebody's home.
League is absolutely horrible with the community it got the worst out of me, stopped playing almost 2 years since hit my goal (wanted to get challenger but the satisfaction wasn't so high after all)~
LOL try not to get yourself on fire burns are not fun to deal with at all ever, even small burns are hell for me ughh. Well everyone has demented side whether they want to admit ir or not, I did some stupid things in the past too.
I'm a very competitive person so when I choose a MP game i kinda stick to it a lot trying to get highest rank and such, haven't played mmmorpg in such a long time too much grind for me..
Well it's still something to hold onto in my opinion, whenever I try that it only affects me negatively because my expectations always too high.
If power is out gotta read that manga I have like a ton of chapters to get me through so not too bad, just burn paper lol especially not something like anime figurines~
I like almost all type of games if they're good, I usually stick to MP ones way more than SP but my favorite are souls/metro series.
So it was somebody else, but the person won't say anything hehe XD
Well honestly I still feel as tired if I sleep little or a lot, I've got like literally no energy right now. That word productivity is like so against all I do XD
That's a bunch of self motivation, I'm very realist so optimism only works if somebody else shoves it in my face~
All I could say about me is that most people say i'm funny and joker irl, but that's about it and what else i wrote in link above not good at describing myself..
Think you've had it worse than me, I used to have issues sleeping at night especially trying to fall asleep would take ~1hour. I don't really have anything to hide to be using PMs either way, I deserve my situation because of my past mistakes, about human contact haven't had the kind of genuine human contact I want for the past 10 years or so, not a big deal i'll manage in the future someday~
I've been kinda like this all my life so it's just natural to deal with it at this point, i don't know if i'm kind at all but since you said these were details on my previous layout about me https://pastebin.com/K5eXRrR2
Well I guess those are mostly notes and not just anime names, cause that'd be a ton o.o
It's the last anime I've completed on my update page, this one felt so well done for its theme I was sad to see it's a "funded project" (if i got that right) so likely no more 2nd season. I haven't binged anime since august, need to get my willpower back for that ~
Haha I won't know either way i suck with measurements pretty awful, just finished an anime I enjoyed a lot for a looong time, hate that feeling with finishing it.
And my replies sometimes are slow because just not feeling well..
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Well, at least I'm ok now, starting to get out of my depression.
League is absolutely horrible with the community it got the worst out of me, stopped playing almost 2 years since hit my goal (wanted to get challenger but the satisfaction wasn't so high after all)~
I'm a very competitive person so when I choose a MP game i kinda stick to it a lot trying to get highest rank and such, haven't played mmmorpg in such a long time too much grind for me..
If power is out gotta read that manga I have like a ton of chapters to get me through so not too bad, just burn paper lol especially not something like anime figurines~
I like almost all type of games if they're good, I usually stick to MP ones way more than SP but my favorite are souls/metro series.
Well honestly I still feel as tired if I sleep little or a lot, I've got like literally no energy right now. That word productivity is like so against all I do XD
That's a bunch of self motivation, I'm very realist so optimism only works if somebody else shoves it in my face~
Was this your comment by any chance lol Think the other pastebin expired so new one https://pastebin.com/J6wZzQzD
All I could say about me is that most people say i'm funny and joker irl, but that's about it and what else i wrote in link above not good at describing myself..
Think you've had it worse than me, I used to have issues sleeping at night especially trying to fall asleep would take ~1hour. I don't really have anything to hide to be using PMs either way, I deserve my situation because of my past mistakes, about human contact haven't had the kind of genuine human contact I want for the past 10 years or so, not a big deal i'll manage in the future someday~
Haha you think that's something bad, you haven't heard a bit~
It's the last anime I've completed on my update page, this one felt so well done for its theme I was sad to see it's a "funded project" (if i got that right) so likely no more 2nd season. I haven't binged anime since august, need to get my willpower back for that ~
Arigatou haha but not really won't >.<"
And my replies sometimes are slow because just not feeling well..