Is the world too peaceful? Is the future bothersome? Is reality your enemy? Don't worry! Even if it is, life is epic! - Medaka Kurokami
You would think after four years, I would stop feeling attached to a random web page that I barely use anymore. Yet, here I still am, updating it four years late.
This is a site where I found happiness, sadness, anger, terror, and friendship, lovers, enemies, and passions, hobbies, and so much more that to list more would be counterproductive. It's a place where I learned many things about myself and other people. And of course, met all of those special people who either left their mark on me, or continue to keep markings. All of is so very surreal.
I think back to the many moments I had throughout these four years. I never expected to be where I'm at, not in a million years. I actually do think my life started when I joined this site, and everything before was a prologue to it all.
Which this is all to really say, I'm grateful I'm still alive, and still here, enjoying life to the best of my ability and treasuring every moment I have with my amazing friends. Friends I would die for. Friends I would love to meet in person. Friends, I couldn't imagine not meeting.
But enough with all the weird rambles. Let me properly introduce myself!
Name: Kishbokai (Obviously), Kish for short, but I have many, many names and nicknames.
Sexuality: Bisexual, but I mostly lean towards women.
Fashion style: A work in progress, but we're getting there. Something along the lines of alt and indie clothing, with bits of punk, is what I'm looking to wear anyway.
Interests: Anything that has a story or is considered art. So reading novels, manga and watching anime and films; Even talking to people are all things I would consider as stuff I'm interested in.
Possessions: Tons of One Piece collectables; Books from manga to novels to comic books to history books; Gaming consoles (But not a PS vita that I want badly), art supplies along with tons of scribbles for my story ideas. Frankly, far too many. In addition to the concerning amount of Gunpla I continue to buy.
Favourites:
Anime- Hibike, Monogatari series, Gundam Series
Manga- One Piece, Blue Period, Jojo
Novels- The Giver, Master of The Game, Ender’s Game
Films- Baby Driver, Forrest Gump, The Shawshank Redemption
Videogames- RDR2, Guilty Gear, Persona 3
Music- The Beatles, Daft Punk, Gorillaz
Cartoons- Owl House, Phineas And Ferb, Adventure Time
Now, this section is dedicated to the wonderful friends I have on this site. I love you all (In a friendship kind of way), and I hope to be with you all to the very end of time:
Watereda- From friends to best friendos, to lovers, back to being best friends, she's someone so very special to me. She's always been with me from the start, who sees this light within that she's managed to stick with me for so long. Throughout my lowest points in life, Watereda was the one who kept up and helped me through it all. Despite our unfortunate breakup, I still see her as someone I love to be with me. Her jokes are hilarious, and her informative look at the world, and how fun and relaxing she can be has made me drawn to her. I hope to meet up with her someday. To give her a big tight hug, and to thank her for everything she has ever done in person. She deserves every bit of happiness in the world.
Philro- He's like the big brother I never had. Philro keeps me grounded in reality, telling me to go with my heart and what I believe in life. Perhaps it's not the most well-accepted thing, but he still advises me to reach for my dreams and personal happiness, without ever compromising for others. And he does the same throughout his life. Some could say he's been tough to get along with, directing to his conservative viewpoints and stubbornness, but I, for one, admire that about him. He sticks to what he believes in, and, when he changes, he understands why and can argue for that change, or what he stuck with something. I hope to get my first-ever drink with him. I trust him with my life, and I hope to never lost him.
Markio- Markio is my best friend. No ifs or buts about it. Though our friendship was a chance encounter and a chance reunion in that, due to problems of my own, we didn't talk that much until we reunited in a server from there. The rest is history as he and I went through similar struggles and always ensured to have fun chats along the way. We both understand each other as a key, knowing what we would do in situations or act. For that, I can truly say he's someone that understands me fully, and if I can be so brash to say, I understand him completely. I hope to meet up with him in India, go around the town, get into silly troubles, ending the way with a gaze at the sunlight where he laughs at how cringing it sounds. I also hope for him to have all the time the world can offer. He really needs it after the enormous amount of studying he has done.
CrowMaruyama/Gwyn/Kyrus (He goes by a lot of names)- Funnily enough, I actually unfriended him from Mal once. Don't remember why exactly, but I was an idiot for doing so. Kyrus is someone that takes a while to understand him. Until you realise he's someone that does and says things he wants to do at that moment. If he wants to go about Persona, and why it's amazing, he will without no detail left. If he wants to send a meme gif, and not talk for the rest of the day, he'll do just that. It's inspiring in an odd way. Because Kyrus understand that what he does is what he wants to do. He knows his flaws and weakness, and has amazing talents, but will only use them when he wants to. It makes for times when I feel really down that when he does randomly ask for a game or a chat while teasing me a bit, it helps so much more then you could ever expect. Kyrus is the greatest friend one can ask for. I hope to hang out at his house, watching him play a game or we're watching a film together, doing exactly what we do online. It's simple and nothing grand, but I know how amazing and memorable it will be, just like my connection with Kyrus.
Iyrasama- She's like the big sister I never had. Interestingly, we met because of a simple catchphrase I used to have whenever I went to chat with someone that sent me a friend request. From there, we continued to talk until, after she finished Evnagleion, I opened out my heart to her. I was fearful of it after I sent it. But, she accepted my woes and comforted me. Iyra is someone that has gone through many troubles throughout her life. I still don't know all of them, but what I know is that she's a strong-willed person. When life pushes her back, she does stand, depressed, but walks while doing so. It's a sober, but thrilling sight to see her still love me when she goes through those pains. But she doesn't want to ever focus on that. Instead, she wants me to be happy and enjoy my youth to the end, doing everything I could want to do. I hope to visit her library of books, sit with her and read them until my eyes go sideways. I want to see that smile and happiness in her eyes, just like what her words have done for me. She deserves all the love the world can offer.
Jeanbokai- When we first chatted, I actually thought of our chats as a game. Going through question after question to continue our conversations every chance I got. I found him fascinating and still do. Jean manages to find ways of being an elitist in his hobbies but enjoys the dumb, bad fun of art. His knowledge of music and anime goes beyond anyone I've met, but he can watch bad shows without a problem. Yet, he is going through the pains of discovering himself and developing his interests. Yet, I hope to be there with him through that. Because, excluding those wonderful conversations we have had on shows we plan to watch together, he is a lovely person that holds so much passion for the world. I hope to see his success reach the very stars of the planet, and still have those chats about how we felt about an anime. His passion is the sun; Bright, and huge, I love to glance at it when I can.
Juzoe- Juzoe is someone that I would never think could be my friend. Not for him, but for me. His simplicity in life and his ideas of having fun, I felt that he wouldn't have fun with me in the slightest. The first chat I can remember is him pranking me with a voice reveal of his, since I didn't know his true gender at the time. Against all odds, he's been a treasured friend. Juzoe is someone I can tease while he was the first to listen to my long rumbles on random topics. It's always fun to discover a shared hobby, and just have fun with it. The jokes, the silliness of it all, only Juzoe can do something like that. I hope to show him around my room as we rest to play some video games, and talk random shit. He's just so damn fun to talk with. What more can you want from a friend than that?
EnTam and Salad- In the beginning, I didn't know what to think of them. They both made a lot of jokes and didn't really seem to care for anything. Their image as adults to me was what I thought adults are like in real life. Self-interested and building connections to have fun. But all of that was a rude and awful view of who these people are. EnTam is someone who has simple goals in life but strives to succeed in them. The skills he has built, he uses them to reach those goals and is perfectly happy in what he does. He is mean at times, but he takes what you say at face value and uses his thinking from that. It sort of forces you to be honest and true to yourself so that you can be built a friendship with him. If you say something in a jokey way, he'll take it as such, but if you say it seriously, he'll offer wonderful advice and be supportive. Not to make him sound simple-minded or dumb because he is a very intelligent man. But, EnTam has gotten through enough experiences to find himself happy and able to find himself through life. Salad is similar but differs in his logical mindset. Salad understands the emotional side of people, but whether or not they are serious, she speaks out her thoughts bluntly. Even to those she cares about, she isn't afraid to tell the harsh truth and advice. Because of these two, they represent two sides of the same coin, offering a varied but understandable perspective. However, at their core, they are just fun people to listen to and discuss things with. There's a real glimpse into the adult world, and who they are from what they say and how they say it. I hope then when I become an adult, I can join in on those conversations with a more experienced mind and have fun with them. I truly admire them as survivors of the harsh world we live in and great friends to hang out with.
Nette- If you were to ask me to describe Nette, I would say that she's the toughest and most humble person I know. From the moment you talk to her, or read through her forums, it is abundantly clear how much she has gone through. While her views could be considered offensive, how she talks is mature and honest without hiding away any parts of herself. In every angry comment or reply she receives, Nette shows maturity in every possible way. Her videos (That I love to watch) also show that side of her. The side of Nette who wants to be happy. Although, on her own terms. I say that as someone who has helped many adults, but she is the only one to treat me from my age, and never allows me to hold on to that burden. It doesn't make me annoyed though. It's refreshing to have someone older than me want to help me, but show a boundary like that. That alone makes it wonderful to talk to her because she doesn't look down or look up at me, but directly at who I am and respects that. She does that to everyone. And I admire that trait so greatly. I hope to visit Nette at her job, or play some games with her. Understand her better, and just be a friend to her. Because she deserves that love and care from all her friends. To accept her for who she is, and be with her through all her troubles. It's the least we, and I can, do because of how wonderful a person she is.
Awesomeze- Awesomeze is the first friend I opened to. I mean that completely. Before him, I had no one to talk to or connect with. But, when I spoke to him, he was there with me and listened to my problems. Looking back, they were the least of my worries, but he took them seriously and helped me through them. Although, I barely know him personally. Oddly, Awesomezme never talked about himself too much but had a great passion and love for anime/manga. Sometimes, odd tastes, but I respected them. It made me love asking about it while I had this lingering thought to want to understand him more. Yet, he's not active on MAL. He did come back once, but he left as quickly as the wind does and blow away. I hope I'll see him again. Maybe then, I'll learn as much as I can about him. Perhaps, as a way of repayment.
Goober- Goober is the oldest friend I've had MAL, yet he is the one I've told to the least. He's actually the person who called me Kish the first time. But Goober is someone that felt mysterious to me. The first adult that wrote and spoke like what I used to think adults were like. His English was on another level, comparable to another friend I have. He wrote beautifully and with elegance which made me always happy to read them. Another thing was his views on media, as he was responsible for showing me legendary manga like Goodnight Punpun and Jojo Part 4. And the advice he gave me hit me to the very core of my being, still as relevant today as ever before. Sadly, he's not online as much as he used to be. In fact, he's been inactive for a long time. But I hold on to the hope he'll return someday, and we can talk again. I still have so much I want to talk to him about, and learn from him. I still want to read what he has to say, and maybe, just maybe, meet him in person. I hope to meet him at a bookstore with a cup of coffee and chat away to the night as it whispers our goodbyes.
For all my friends, thank you so much for being my friend. I treasure you forever and always, and whether we talk a ton or not, I'm forever grateful I have in my life. And for those that used to be my friends, for better or worse, I will always remember the impact you have had on my life. I wish the very best for you, in a life without me.
Thank you for reading up to this point. See you around
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