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> If you know you shouldn't get mad over things that is so trivial but still you get mad over those things then there is something definitely wrong.
Not all problems are same of course, but if you face problems on a regular basis I think you should have a better idea to deal with it. If you are already experienced and you know you should get over this there could be ways you are familiar with. But ig this doesn't work well like its said in practical life. Its emotions after all its really not easy to control.

>For me even if my parents dont truly understand how I feel. They will try to help me anyways.
My mom is really very much opposite of what i am, so the kind of problems i face is very foreign to my mom. She would care if I share and I have shared as well, but I dont expect a proper suggestions. Sometimes it just gives relief to just share not getting suggestions is fine as well. But ig thats her way of helping. I dont really mind how my parents react. I wont every commit suicide just because my parents didn't listen to me and my problems. I am not at that stage and will never be. I just find it entertaining and funny to share gen z problems with my parents and thats what gives me relief. It shifts the priority of my mind to something else. But there are less things i have shared to them. I just share it to friends if I really have to. I dont even mind if they listen/see or not. It just feels good to speak about it .

>But rather you just want someone to listen to you and who better than someone who knows you from the day you were born.
Yeah man thats what i said, I really dont expect help or any kind of suggestions as i mentioned what kind of suggestions people like to give. Just talking about it feels good sometimes.

>So I just made it as simple as possible. I mean sometimes simplicity does help.
Hope you keep on writing and I get to see it as well.

>Whatt you you doing these days though?
I try to socialize more these days. Though i haven't been able to go out for about a week, kinda sick so. I used to go to this calisthenics park to do pullups and other workouts that require iron bar. Made few friends there as well. I will go as well after i become fine. I also am searching for a job. Better if its my field, even if its not i would love to do it for the experience and just socialization. There are like many close people that my mom know and she is also insisting them about job. Hope I get one. Nothing extra ordinary as of now, there are days when im at house for 24 hours and there are days when I come to home just to eat and sleep. When did you feel like you need to get a job and work? Like since when did you realize i cant live like this everyday? After 12?

>People often go through phases of questioning and uncertainty
Were you ever scared of death or have you always been so optimistic about it?

>You donnt need to figure everything out right now. You dont need to solve the puzzle of existence to start living meaningfully. Everything will unfold slowly.
Thats also why I try to socialize these days. Overthinking is also a type of depression which I dont wanna be a patient of. Maybe if I socialize and have job maybe I would forget about it cause I would have real problems that i can actually work on and improve rather than worrying about things I cant do anything about. There is nothing I can do about mortality, but maybe I can atleast fix the problem in my task.

I think its very shameful to be a introvert in this country. Cause the people are really friendly or even not less than a family. Not everyone ofcourse. Cause even if you go to the villages in this time there's public path from people's yard. If you ask for water they give it as well. My grandmother from mother side invites everyone walking on the road to come and eat something. There is literally no privacy in village and there is no fear of theft as well. That's how much cool we are with people. It was like that in our parent's time as well thats why they dont know what anti-social or introvert is. I really dont know why I am introverted in this country. If we can live this way in a country I dont mind being the country with the lowest IQ. If you talk to any stranger without being weird no one's going to ignore you. It makes sense in a country like Japan why people are introverted and there are hikikomoris cause the people are really shit there when it comes to aiding strangers in any way possible. But this country is different. I am really very disappointed by myself.

>Youre atleast recognizing your fears and your desire for change.
Yeah this is the first step of course. But i feel like i have only realized so much. I mean its important to have a self realization, but what if im not working on the change? I have realized many things about myself but have worked on very few.

> Its honestly pretty overrated.
Daamn why lmao?

>When I used to be a kid. Our family wasnt too good financially. I mean it was enough most of the time but it wasnt enough for extra luxury that I wanted to have.
I can say the same as well, but looking at that time's economy I think it was okay-ish. Nothing was that expensive that time anyways and we didn't have the need to own a thing that was heavily expensive. I would say we are struggling financially these days. We just had anshabanda and you know what brothers can become when it comes to property and money. We are searching for a house to buy hoping something good will happen but its been very long we haven't been able to find it yet. And we are just scared that the money that we received will not just be wasted, thats also one reason why i want to get a job myself.

I dont think I demanded anything as a child. Not cause I was a good child just cause I was pretty dumb to know things like that and at that time there were no kids around me to get jealous. I mean clothes food and education are basic needs they will do that even if I dont ask for it and I am thankfull for that, but except that I haven't demanded anything else as much as i can remember. Still i am grateful for what they have done and of course I want to repay them.

>Since I never had that appreciation for my parents when I was a kid. Stupid kid I was.
I dont think that kind of thing existed when I was a kid. Like I still cant say I love you to my parents. I wasn't brought up that way. I think this is typical nepali behavior. Even the senior people dont say thank you when they receive something or get help. I dont think showing appreciation exists in this country. If like people receive koseli for other they just repay with their koseli next time. Havent really heard people say thank you or dhanyabaad.But that doesn't mean they dont appreciate, they just dont show it.

>How is your? Do you smoke? Or drink?
Opposite to yours, I stopped smoking 2 years ago and I very rarely drink. I dont know if its my special talent or not but i like and dont mind consuming these bitter stuffs that are supposed to be healthy. Like whenever im sick i dont mind those hot water with jadibuti mixed in. I also like hot water. I like karela. Makes me wonder instead why people hate on this stuff. I am thin and i also have high metabolism but my bones are pretty strong. Never had a broken bone, didn't get corona, haven't gotten dengue yet. What I have is never ending gastric which really burns my chest at night, thats also why I stopped smoking. Beside that I am pretty much healthy.

>I might think like that purely coz of regrret. But idk. Im not dead yet.
I mean you might not be able to think if you are dead.

>If you're kalo jibrey then I hope youu curse me saying "hope he dies at 50 aftter raising a kid to theirr adultthood" thanks in advance
Wont be doing that.

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>This is a problem imo though coz once u know you shouldn't be but if youre still the same then that asks for something.
Not gonna pretend like I understand this sentence.

>Either you are emotionally unstable or you are coping with the fact that something bad as happened to you. And both are as bad.
For long term its clearly bad. You cannot still be emotional about a thing that happened two years ago. Its also true that moving on is hard but a lot can happen in 2 years or a certain time. I dont think even an emotionally unstable person clings onto things for so long, its just not trying to move on ig. Hoping something good will eventually happen to them if they look sad and depressed. Which is what i have seen mostly.

> Also this thing that I learned after my breakup is that there are tons of people saying "if you are gping through hard times just stay yourself busy like do this do that" keep your mind distracted.
For me when I ask suggestions or when I get suggested I dont expect "what" to do. i expect "how" to do. Like if im broke and i ask for suggestions people are obviously gonna say you should get a job. Like I already dont know that. I need suggestions not orders. I want suggestions on how I can get a job. Its pretty easy for people to say do this and dont do that but we all are different people what worked for them cannot work for everyone.

>I find actually facing things head on is the best way to do it.
For me what I like about the people of our mom and dad's generation is that the problem our current generation faces like social anxiety, depression, breakups is not in their dictionary. So whenever they share their problem with their parents they really dgaf. Which could be bad in certain cases. if they become careless about their kids like that. I personally dont share my problems with my parents cause I know they wouldn't get the problems im facing and thats enough for me to calm down. Its just gives a sensation of relief knowing it aint a bigger problem. Ofcourse it could be a bigger problem to me but that kinda calms me down knowing there are people who literally have no idea about what I am going through. This ofcourse doesn't work always but It has worked many times. Just sometimes make me realize there will come a time where there would be bigger problems in my life.

>I felt like my abilities was limited when I rhymed.
Yeah, also its not like there would be rhyming words for each and every experiences of your life. It really gives freedom to write. You start thinking of rhyming words rather than trying to sum up your experiences which I have faced too. It can ruin your writing as well, could lose the touch of realism.

>Id like to hear whats ur inspiration behind this was.
I would say its my day to day life. That was around when I left my internship and i was back to my normal workless routine. Just internal conflicts and personal dissatisfaction. Thats when I picked up the pen. I also wanted to do something new except being on laptop all day and i shut down my laptop and started writing. I also wrote another one next day which I didn't write in a copy so im still searching the file.

>lmao I found ur id before seeing this lol.
I was shocked too, i just pressed send button and opened Instagram and saw your notification. I thought even if you had read my comment you wouldn't have reached that paragraph within that time.


>I dont have any right to say how others should live but dwelling about things that isnt something controllable and potentially losing the present is pretty stupid thing to do imo.
Yeah it is indeed a very stupid thing. Me and people supporting nihilism cry about not having a universal purpose but whats there we can do about it? We search for our universal purpose? Not having an universal purpose is a topic to think about and is an interesting topic but its clearly not worth thinking about it when you are not a professional in that field. But it can absorb your motivation to do things when you realize nothing that you do will matter one day. Its just a phase for me hope I grow out of this someday. Its just been in my mind because of the death experiences I had to face. Death is indeed a scary thing if you look it that way. Everything is pretty normal to everyone even if you are gone. The time passes, alive people live, the sun shines, earth revolves, maybe this is what people are scared of? But doesn't that mean that the death doesn't matter? Your life still mattered if you are gone and things are still normal maybe that means the death has no meaning? Cause you dont exist and anything that doesn't exist should not matter to the things or people that are existing.

I still haven't able to adopt death in a good way. Which I think we should. But it may eventually grow in me that this is also a part of life. But it is indeed scary to think that you dont exist one day. There are so many mysteries we will never learn the truth about and so many things will go unnoticed. We wont be able to experience everything. Life is unequal for everybody. Some get what they dont deserve and some dont get what they deserve and it is sad to imagine people will be gone after living an unfair life. Every life should be equal. These things are really scary. Hope I will learn things in coming days that will help me grow as a person. I might start appreciating the life I have even more. This is not how I want to live my life for sure, being scared of death every time.

>and most of their answers are related to sex fantasies.
That's also a thing to experience for once ig lmao.

> Thats literally all I want in my life. Like I wanna get married and have children by like 30/32 and I wanna raise a kid.
Deep down thats what I want as well. But I think that wish of mine is being shadowed by what my opinion on life is these days. Also I dont yet wanna think about marriage. I dont see myself as a father yet. I need to work on a lot of things still. About 5 6 years ago I really wanted to be famous, wanted to live a luxurious life. I wanted popularity, but i dont think like that these days. Normal life with high earning is possible as well. Thats what the aim is right now. Tbh I dont have a unique aim for myself. I just want my parents to have a happy life before dying. Just let them experience things they missed out on. Life sounds too short to just spend it in Nepal only. Maybe a little bit of travelling with parents and family. Thats what my thought for future is.

>and once they are adult like 20/22. Ill happily die.
Damn thats like 50/52? You really want to die early? Thats like my das's current age
But what if you live for 90 years? Do you drink or smoke? How is your diet? What if you die before that tho? Like even before 30s due to unforeseen circumstances?


Its not getting too good.
Hope i dont have a "Kalo Jibro"

>But if its something that involves your deep emotions then whats the point finding logic?
I dont know what its called in english but im not a bhau khojne type of person. I respond to everyone if I can. I do reakize that they just remember me when they need but I still respond to them. So whenever I get emotional its mostly one sided only. I feel like i am the only one grieving over this thing while to them this isnt a big deal. So i used to think im being too clingy over a thing that doesnt matter to anyone else but me. But to me its a big deal and deeply rooted emotion. Though sometimes it isnt a big deal but you spoil yourself into becoming too emotional for things that you shouldnt be. I think its okay being too clingy and emotional but you need to move on at some point. Once all your emotional frustration is gone you can work on the logical side.

>Though I don't wanna share in comments. Ill dm you instead.
I read it sir. Tho I didnt expect all of them to be in English. Its good. Looks like only your first poem is with rhyming and every other ones are fee verse poems. The free verse really shows the experience and truthfullness.

>And also Id love to read what you wrote
I wrote one in Nepali. I have written in english as well but I didnt find it anywhere it was in some google drive link if I find it I will share it someday. This is the latest one I wrote about 4 or 5 months ago.

आलसले भरिएको सुस्त दिनहरू झेलिरहेको छु म,
जीवनको नाटकमा एक्लोपनको पात्र खेलिरहेको छु म।

एक्लोपनको भारी बोकि मैले, काटिसकँ धेरै अब्द,(This means year)
मस्तिष्क भरि शब्द छन् मेरा, ओठ छन् निशब्द।

आँखा भरि सपना छन् मेरा, मस्तिष्कमा सवाल हजार,
नाटकमा छुटे केही कथा मेरा, जीवन भयो उजार।

I am not good with summarizing my experience in this kind of format. But i think im okay at writing imiginary stuffs. Like stories or even poems. One of my friend uploaded poems on reddit and someone asked him to sell it for $3 to $4. So I tried doing that as well but i didnt find the guy. Thats when I wrote those poems which are lost now.

>I also started to post things I write from today on Insta.
I dont think we are connected on insta. Kuwushall is my username.

>But if I say "didi ma voli bihana auxu tapai mero time ma aunus hai" then she will agree.
Sounds cool.

>Too bad he died.
I realized that after listening his two albums. I went to see why he stopped making music and found out he is dead.

>Even if life is just about living until we die, the experiences, connections, and even struggles we have during those 70-80 years give it weight if only to us and the people we touch.
Each person has a different life so I dont think saying "life has no meaning" is correct way to represent this concept. You cannot speak for everybody. I do indeed agree with most part of nihilism but I dont think life itself is meaningless. I think existence is meaningless. Existing just to vanish someday completely. Existence being meaningless does not negate the values people attribute to life.

>Just because some things are inevitable doesn’t mean the journey toward them is meaningless.
I think it comes from how you perceive the concept of death. Most people including me are scared of death it is the literal end to a life. It makes people disappear.
The journey is meaningful if you have a destination. I cant think death as a destination. Its also only meaningful when you have fun looking back to your journey and its struggles which after death is impossible to do. You climb the mountain but immediately after reaching the top you slip and die can that be called meaningful if you wont be able to look back to your struggles? Maybe we can do that while we are alive but idk man its getting really hard atp to put it in words. I am not being able to write down the way I am thinking. Yeah living itself isnt meaningless. Its just that we lack a universal purpose in life. We all have personal purposes ofc. There is a high chance that universe was a coincident and that means we are coincident as well.

>I just understand how important this whole concept of "god" is to the world.
It has become more about religion than gods these days. I myself dont care about the gods but I like my religion. It has become more about having more power and population. People are more loyal to religion than the gods. God and Religion has become two different things. I have seen people of different religion reading geeta or bible. People dont get into the religion but kinda follow the gods.

>I understand what you mean but forr me reelationship is friendship with multiple different dynamics that its not really comparable.
Maybe a good friendship can be compared with a good relationship but a good relationship cannot be compared with a
good friendship.

>Ive experienced quite a few deaths of my close ones and the pain of losing someone is same but in breakup we are literally grieving for someone who is still alive.
I associate relationships with friendships. I think if its a strong relationship and friendship its basically the same thing except for the physical thing. So the closest thing i can associate breakup is with losing a friend but when does that ever happen? Like i have never experienced breaking up with a friend. I have had situanships but never been in a proper relationship. So i dont know what a breakup feels like. The only proper "losing your close people" i have experienced is death so I just thought maybe this is what breakup feels like. From that logic its like people dying but they say "i dont wanna be withyou anymore so im going to die". Lmao

>Then I read few books and I saw this line "Logic doesn't care about your emotion and emotion doesn't care about logic".
So did you become more logical or emotional after this?

> Like I used to read poems a lot and I always wanted to write one. And now Ive started to do it. Ive written 4 poems now
Are you willing to share them? I have written few poems as well. One is still saved. The other ones got lost when i bought a new phone and got rid of the old phone.

>Its 3.5 km from my home so its rather near.
Is the time table flexible? Whats the schedule cause this site says you messaged me at 11:30 yesterday and thats commonly the work hour.

>I mean itts possibly the only wayy yo engage in a conversation with someone you dont even know like youu cant go to them and talk as if you are frnds for 10 years.
Even friends with 10 years of friendship start off with "k chha".


>Ive been Getting into too much brainrot gay stuufs nowadays lmao. Idk why I find them so funny.
Instagram has become the main hub for memes and trends these days. Facebook is pretty much dead and one sided these days. Whateever happens in facebook stays in facebook. But whatever happens in insta reaches everywhere.

>You like him?
Yes been listening to him lately. Before him i was listening to loud musics mostly . The ones you suggested as well. One of my friend listens to nujabes and was suggesting me to listen as well and i gave it a try. Helps in multitasking as well.
The consistent beats, tones, and instrumental loops helps in concentration.

>Enies Lobby has the highest high in all of one piece thematically. Luffy vs Lucci is still to this dattee my favourite fight in One Piece.
Alsso zoro and sanji got to shine with their own fights. Robin's past was shown which is also like the first step towards the mystery solving in one piece.

>I dont even know what the underworld prison arc is. Is it the fishman island or the arc before thee marineford?
Its before the marineford arc Imped down arc. Luffy goes there to save ace and meets jinbei. That was a cool arc as well. Boa helpes luffy sneak into the prison.

>Marine fordd was amazing arc but my only problem with it is that itts too long tthatt it should be.
I mean yeah man. It took luffy ages to reach ace's execution spot. Bro kept running for a whole episode and didnt even reach.

> And I dont really like Wholecake.
the reason I like wholecake island arc is that one piece is known for its friendship and i think this arc does its job more emotionally and dramatically and it went out of its way to do something new by adding a litttle bit of family drama as well. At that point every arcs were same. Luffy saves the islanders by defeating the villain and have a buffet at the end and continue their journey. So it was kinda new and its within the story as well. We got introduced to one the the yonkos and her crew.

>While there might not be objective universal meaning or purpose for you being here but you cannot deny the fact tthat are personal meanings andd purpose you yourself can create through relationships, friendships or anything else.
Yes thats true there are always personal meanings in life. But i think nihilism also talks about humanity in general and not just one life. In this vast universe how's a tiny humanity like ours gonna matter. Its true that we gotta live till we die and what we do while we are alive matters to us and the people around us. But thats limited to that only. The world is cruel and we need to have something to stick on and believe in it. We are forced by the dynamics of the world to have meaning. My concept of nihilism is you are gonna matter to you and people around you but there still are inevitable things that you can do nothing about. Because literally nothing is permanent. But i am not encougaring suicide here. I myself will never do such things. I like to think being alive ia a sin and killing yourself is even bigger sin than that.
I am happy to be alive and all but studying, graduating, earning, marrying and everything else is all for nothing. Its all to not die untill your time comes. So man maybe the meaning of life is to just live untill you die. Living matters for 70 80 years death doesnt.

>The concept of nothingness is fascinating as well.
I feel like whatever our mind cannot capture or remember is nothingness. Cause sometimes you are just staring at the wall or sky and when you get disrupted by someone you dont even remember what you were thinking. Prolly because you were thinking nothing? Just pure zero thought and blank mind? If sleep is the state of unconsciousness and nothingness cannot be achieved in conscious state is it safe to say that we have experienced nothingness during sleep?
We dont remember it because conscious mind cannot grasp the concept of nothingness.

>Whats your view on gods and aliens
I feel like there were people like shiva parbati ganesh and all. Maybe they were like a leader of particular community during the evolution phase in the beginning we were pretty much animals and we had animal instinct so I think maybe the people we claim to be god gained intelligence and knowledge before than everyone else so maybe thats why they worship them as gods. God Indra prolly found out that it rains in this season and doesnt in this season before everyone else and maybe thats why he is the god of rain? And prolly whatever is mentioned in the holy books are the experiments they did cause none of them knew what would happen if we did this. This was prolly centuries ago so maybe the stories have evolved at this point? I like to think these people we worship as god existed and also the stone bridge in sri lanka exists for real. Not sure if the monkeys did it tho. So yeah maybe they were real life super hereos did something for the community and became the god of people. I personally dont believe in gods like how everyone else does. Buddha was born as a normal human being as well and later became god and jesus as well. So its hard to believe that our hindu gods just came from nowhere.

i also think aliens exist. It would be stupid to think that they dont. Universe has countless possibilities and people think there exists no other planets or life in other part of the universe? If there really are infinite possibilities I also think there are infinite of planets that is straight up rip off of our planet. Infinites of me and you chatting through MAL. There are literally infinite of possibilites and even all of the unique possibilities can end and everything can start from zero again. Imagining shit like this really fucks your brain. Its the same people who claim that earth is flat that are denying the existence of aliens. We are aliens to lmao.

>Now that Im almost fully over my breakup I can start socialising again.
Damn sorry to hear that my friend. Looks like youve already moved on quite a bit already. Can breakup be associated with the death of an closed ones? Like is the feeling same to when a person dies?

Where did you start working is it near your house or is it far? Also congratulations for getting a job. Good luck with your work and life.

>Thats nice. Youre growing as a person.
I still suck at holding a conversation with an unknown female. But i feel like i have improved a lot while i communicate with males. I used to find "formality" cringe. Like asking "khana khanu bhayo", "k chha halkhabar" absolutely for no reason. I still dont care what others eat and how they are but what i understood is adapting these small things is how you develop. Cause there's literally nothing to lose. There is only gain either positive or negative.

>Nice to see you going out of your comfort zone
Yeah not daily, but way more than how much i did few months ago. Whenever im out im much more confident. I kinda sing or hum these days when i am outside and pretty loud enough. I wouldnt have dont that a few months ago. Might be a lil childish but I sometimes shout as well lmao.

>It used to happen to me too. When I open laptop and open google. It automatically runs MAL on background. Now that I logged off. It wasnt the problem.
It could be the mobile app for me. Maybe it runs in the background when the wifi is on. I could turn it off but being active on MAL everytime isnt a problem unless it drains energy from my phone.

>I honestly dont remember what I asked you to watch here lmao.
It was a hindi movie, dont remember the name.

>I dont like it doesnt mean i cannot consume it.
But there still are pure haters who without consuming hate on things. Also yeah i wont listen to it if i dont like it but I should be able so say what I didnt like about it and why i didnt like it. if people are open to share their opinion about what they like, people who disliked it should have the opportunity to share their opinion as well. Its fun seeing different opinions clash in the internet until an indian nigga comes and comments "India best saar", "Virat kohli eats 10 ronaldo for breakfast"

>He is almostt a mumble rapper buut I love his flows and beat selection.
I was trying to get into him but havent got time. His latest album is the only one that I have listened. Have you heard of nujabes? I listen to him nowadays. He did all of the sound tracks from samurai champloo. He does blend of jazz, hip-hop, and atmospheric sounds. It is also said that he started lofi musics. Been into him lately.

>His entire connection with that blind Gungi kid is phenomenaly done.
I like think that this arc uplifted the rating of hxh. Yorknew city could also be the reason cause of chrollo lucifer fangirls. But if I have to think plot, story character and developmenmt wise it has to be one of the best arc in anime history. Also whats your fav one piece arc? It has to be wholecake for me. The sogeking arc was good as well and the underwater prison.

>Do you hate anyyone?
Not a passionate hater but i cant stand uryu ishida guy. I feel like weve talked about this before. Just the character's personality pissed me off. Very unlikable for me. I would say a better version of sasuke but still shit.

>Are you scared of it?
I experienced the death of two people within 6 months one very close and another not so close to me. So i would say my view on life changed rather than saying im scared of death. But i dont know maybe i am. Just the thought of not existing terrifies me. Made me think through a lot of things. How a small number of humans dont matter at all. They die but the world keeps revolving. You only matter to yourself and the close ones around you when you are alive. Your though on death is more focused on spiritual and conscious aspect. For me the mortality just scares me. It maybe because I havent lived life fully yet and im prolly scared of dying without doing anything. Maybe it would change as i grow older. Also i have become quite nihilistic. I dont think we have any purpose here at all. Cause even universe is dying oneday and we will never be able to stop it. I can say this is why I decided to get out of my comfort zone. Cause all i did after experiencing loss of people was think about death. Life was good when people said you go to heaven after dying so it still gave a hope of existing. But thats not the case is it? You dont exist twice. I am nowhere near those proffessors or scientist who know way too much and are way more knowledgeable and intelligent than average people but I feel like I know why people say "dherai padhyo bhane pagal hunxa". I should have become cringe rather than becoming a nerd.

I see you are fascinated about death which im as well. But i dont see it as in interesting topic. What amazes me more than anything in this world is the concept of "nothingness". Where is our universe located at? What was there when there was no universe? If there was nothing before universe it should be blank but our brains are limited to imagine "blank" as plain white or black which still is "something". It actually makes sense why religions and gods got created. Cause we dont know what nothing is and its easy to say god was there. And another reason why death scares me is that there are countless unknown things about this world that we will never know. Why the fuck do we exist? And on top of that we have to live legally, morally and socially. My opinion is more based on Meaning of Existence.
Whats your opinion on gods and aliens?

Looks like skip and loafer is getting an another season will you be watching it?
My intertet's pack ended a few days ago and i downloaded few anime to watch i wasnt able to watch any of them. I also only watched one seasonal anime this season. I think im done atp. I think i can still go for another 2 years only seasonals tho. But i really cant pick up any newer ones.

>I feel like Ive stopped enjoying festivals for long time now.
I wont say i enjoyed the festivals itself but i will say i enjoyed meeting people and travelling in the name of festivals. I am literally tired of my lonely-only-stay-in-home life and I really look forward to meeting people these days maybe thats what i enjoyed more than the festivals. We dontt have festivals this year so i didnt put tika but i really enjoyed my 2 weeks out of kathmandu. I have kinda socially started taking risks these days.

> Ive been really inactive recently as well.
I havent been much active in this site either. But my friends say it shows me online. Idk if somethings wrong with this site or a MAL tab is secretly running somewhere in my phone. Havent connected manga reading app to this site too. But finished a movie called Look Back today so i opened this site to add it in the list. You mustve heard of look back right? From the author of chainsaw man he prolly made this one shot during lockdown so you may have heard about it or even read.

>You should watch it if you havent.
I havent. I might but not very soon. Maybe one day.

>Shows how underground Im rn. Havent even heard it once lmao.
The song is meh. But the anime it maybe shounen but its kinda new. Im enjoying it for now. Do you know jigokuraku? Thees both could be on the same level when it comes to newer changes in shounen but dandadan is better.


>Im pretty sure these were the most black dominated fields back then but dont think its the case now at all.
These still are black dominated fields but not "only". Maybe porn too now lmao.

> I think Em is overglorified interms of his actual songwriting but his legacy is undeniable.
Snoop dogg is prolly the second popular name after 2pac in terms of influence but I literally know nothing about snoop dogg. I think eminem has done more than snoop dogg also during not a very good times. I just think snoop dogg is there just cause he is friends with 2 pac and other big rappers and he is older. I feel like he is only respected for his age and how chill he is when he is stoned and maybe thats how he became frank with other rappers.


>This doesnt mean old school rap is trash
Yeah ofc not. Bands are not as popular as they used to be these days. But we still listen to bands from 60s and 70s. But also we are emotionally connected to what we are used to hearing doesnt mean we wont like the newer ones. Its not that all the newer ones are going to be bad.

Also what do you think about this. There are people saying "if you dont like dont listen to the music". But again you need to listen to it first to decide whether you like or not and if I dont i think i should have the right to comment on what i didnt like about it. That doesnt mean i have the right to defame and insult people but i should atleast be able to justify my taste and my opinion and I will never again listen to it. It looks quite easy to me.

>What do you mean by newer version. If new version applies to Kendrik, Cole or Vince Staples then Im fine with them.
They still make music doesnt mean they have adapted to the newer version of rap. Theres mumble trap emo. Emo ones are prolly like xxxtentacion and juicewrld. Which i personally never liked. Mumble ones are just mumbling words that not even the rappers themselves understand. But i quite enjoy them.

>In same category I though like Travis, Future and somewhat like the pure chatoic and unhinged lyricism of Tyler.
Future's been getting quite mumbly lately tho. He may not be a pure mumble rapper but he has tried it atleast. Do you like his latest album from which the kendrick drake beef again started?

>How do you feel about this?
But from what i have seen i feel like you will like 21 savage? Have you never listened to him? If not maybe give it a try.

> Ya like what if Ichigo'a dad wore a condom. Who would plan Ichigo's birth now.
Lmao this made me laugh for minutes.

>I see Aizen as a bad reskinned version of Urahara that went dark.
Yeah man i never thought about that but urahara had his reasons to become a villain. Wouldnt have been strange.

>I atleast think Aizen has a level of depth of his character unlike cool characters like Madara. So even though I dont really like Aizen as a character I feel like he is not actually a bad antagonist.
Yeh aizen is not a bad antagonist he is okay but not in a way he is renowned as. There are things people are missing out about aizen and only hyping him up about his planing skills. Which sounds bullshit to me.

What do you think about grimmjow?
Im neutral towards him i neither like nor dislike him but later in he kinda teamed up with ichiho and the gang. I kinda liked him at the beginning he was passionate about fighting stonger opponents than him. He was doing what he was supposed to do. Idk maybe the loss eventually turned into respect.

>Ulquiorra is Meruem of Bleach
I didnt know you liked mereum. It makes sense why you like him now that you have compared him with Ulquiorra. Wat i like about mereum or rather the whole chimera ant arc is that mereum as an evil villain trying to finish human kind it would make sense for him to change or develop as a character in a war or a fight. Instead of evolving through battle or warfare he changed in the setting of a simple game of Gungi. Who would have thought of that. The other side of the arc was already chaotic with kite dying gon getting stronger and blinded by vengeance while the one he is supposed to fight is evolving in a kinda better way.

> I loved Shinji and Rose.
Oh yeah i like shinji too. He has a cool bankai too.


I feel like when pasionate characters break their character it kinda sucks. I mean if the story and character have a good development about a character's changes it would make sense. But randomly changing a character from what the viewers are used to viewing would be bad.

What characters do you hate from bleach?

>Even I didnt know about what mewing, gyatt were untill yesterday.
Lmao how did you learn about it?

>And we came to the conclusion that the reason Balen is so powerful rn is that he did what past politicians couldn't. Which is to be accessible to the younger audience.
He could be accessible to older audience too. Cause even some of the old people are frustrated of seeing the sutuation of this country maybe they atleast want to see this country become good before they die. He is actually trying to globalize things as well. I forgot what actually he was talking about. But he was saying we have "something: unique than india which we and actually globalize and pull tourists.
What i also thought of was Like indian cuisine and ours is not much different but their's is more spicy. ours is a blend of every masala but equal. Tourists dont prefer spicy foods so maybe we could work on this like it would have indian taste too but less spicy.

Are you not scared of death and growing older? What do you think of death and evolution?

Hello sir how is it going? Hope you had a good dashain. I was out of kathmandu for 2 weeks for dashain. I clearly didnt miss kathmandu.

>Ya I still do. I dont want my laptop to fk me everytime I wanna post a comment.
I do too sometimes just cause the text is too small in this site. I could zoom the site but i would have to scroll longer to see your next comment after writing my reply lmao. Even zooming wont make much difference anyway the margin between two lines are very close which just fucks my eyes.

>If I am ever in a mood for anime music then these are the first one I go with.
Lately people are just hyping the opening song of every popular anime or manga. And this makes me think people dont really focus on the lyrics of pop music. I mean more than half of the anime viewers around the world dont understand japanese and they just hype it if the anime is popular. I could be wrong but looks like musicians themselves dont focus much on lyrics cuz it is aimed to go viral. If thats how this genre has become these days i think thats good. Its not like i have any problem with songs that are aimed to go viral go viral. Just recently dandadan's op song went viral as well so i just thought maybe thats how this genre these days works.

>I dont know how much of it is true but its a stereotype that niggers are all about playing basketball, eating kfc and listening raps.
Did rap somehow change the stereotype related to the Black community? Maybe mostly in america only. Like you said its mostly basketball eating chicken and listening to raps these days but maybe there was more before that. Have you seen the taxi driver? A white guy in that movie says "nigger". Even in the nba white dominated the logo of nba is a white guy as well. They were like culturally and socially dominated back then maybe that has changed. Prolly not only because of raps but when we think of the richest and popular black men we mostly think of rappers and basketball players. Isnt this the only two field from where black people started gaining popularity fame and money?

>And I also dont think rap is dying per say
we could say what we are used to hearing and what we grew up with is dying. Do you think you will like the newer version of rap? Will you ever check on mumble rappers? Like playboi carti and ken carson?

> Just dont wanna record. Too much work.
Looks like you did now.

>Did you complete it?
Yes i completed it as well.

>I think he is nothing special tbh. He is like any "cool".
Same man. i dont think aizen is a manipulator like people claim. Its his power that works that way and the events are just evolving naturally in a way that favors him and his power. But again if its his power and he uses it to manipulate other characters he may be some kind of manipulator. But aizen planing everything like bringing ichigo to soul society just sounds so bullshit man. It looks like author just gave that credit to aizen to make him more op. It didnt look pre planned. When i say things werent pre planned its not that i want viewers to be revealed everything but it should have made me feel "Yeah this is really what aizen planned". His plans dont sound much convincing to me. And i also hate when villains break their character. Aizen never showed any emotions. for a very long time. But when he came near to defeat he started getting angry like a bitch. Thats not a sign of an op villain.

>I think Ulquiorra is the best one though
One of the best villains fr. Dude wasnt humane in the beginning but had a really humane ending. Bro really developed a lot in just a single fight.

> Thats also one of the reason Starkk is one my favourite character in Bleach despite him not having like any screentime.
Starkk is also undoubtedly one of my favorite bleach characters. Dude's chill doesnt want to fight.

>What is your favourite character in the show?
I really havent given much thought about non-villain characters of bleach. I like urahara as well he gives me kaiki deishuu vibes. They have same voices too. I do like renji and madarame ikkaku as well. I always like yankee characters no matter what. They mostly are hard workers with no any special talents at all. They push to their limits for the sake of growing stronger. They are always bleeding in every fights. They really give a side character vibe and i like how controlled and limited they are to their role.

>I didn't know we were the worst country interms of IQ lmao. But I've always hated this IQ thing ngl.
Yeah. But the ones making the list have also said this isnt legit and they just surveyed in some of the rural areas only.

I do think our country have more dumber people than smarter people. But again on the basis of what tho? If we compare ourselves with what currently is trendy in everywhere around the wordls we are clearly dumber because half of the population isnt even familiar or connected with foreign cultures. But we do have enough recsources people and also IQ to run this small country which we arent being able to do. My grandfather doesnt know about elon musk and his works but he has enough knowledge about agriculture to be stable in this country. But what i mean is we should know who elon musk is in this day and age because we depend on his country for most of the things. If we were able to work off our own knowledge IQ and resources we shouldnt have given a single fuck about foreign world but thats not the case with our country. We are dependent upon people country and culture we are unknown about which i think affects our ability to grasp newer things which clearly requires more knowledge and mental capability.

>I dont think it does. Knowing global terms doesnt have anything to do with intelligence imo.
I dont mean to say that not knowing what gyatt and rizz means that we are dumb. But try and explain what rizz is to an average nepali person and you will realize how bad their mental capabality to understand things like this is. There is this youtuber in nepal who plays games with strangers in the street. These games are already played by foreign youtubers. But when i see the youtuber trying to explain how the game works to these nepali people it really shows their mental capacity. I wonder why we are so bad with these foreign cultures. Like people who are way too much familiar with western culture are very much ahead and people who have 0 knowledge about west are really back. In this day and age i dont think you should either be too familiar with western culture that you dont even givea fuck about your country or be so grounded that you dont even wanna go up. Being in the middle balancing both and working for your country should have been the right choice but unfortunately thats now how this country works which is kinda sad to see.

>We have different cultures yet they are similar enough that Indian culture outshadows ours. Like what do we even have though?
yeah thats the thing nepal really is the small version of india. But that doesnt mean we cannot work on something new of ourselves. Maybe im just frustrated and being blinded by the sucess of other countries and i maybe thinking this is easy but it indeed is doable.

If so then can we say south korea and japan are small version of china? China has everything these two countries have. Maybe not japan but south korea fr has nothing that japan and china dont. Still they stand out uniquely among those two countries. I dont think being smaller and having a similar culture to a big country actually matters cause compared to china and japan india is nothing. If south korea can do it we can do it as well. But again its not as easy as a 21 y/o guy's ranting makes it sound. I dont think i ll get to see this country evolve as long as i live.

Do you still write these comments in notepad?

>Only anime music I do wanna listen on their own are the both openings from Mushishi, yuyu hakusho opening, cowboy bebop opening and ending, sparkle from your name
Do you often listen tho or just want to?

> Looks like Im getting old.
I dont remember either. Its just the memorable ones or the ones i frequently listen to. I remember clannad ost cause the first season was boring and i focused on everything except the plot. Thats how i remembered its music.

>I dont know much about new Linkin Park but if they are completely rebranding the band or just adding new member to their old band
I too just heard a glimpse of them talking about rebranding it. It it were about a drummer or other background musicians it wouldnt have affected the band much but its literally the heart or the band thats being replaced. People would criticize but if it they made a new band maybe the criticize could be avoided.

>Its like how some people used to hate the idea of miura's assistant continuing Berserk after his death saying it wont be the Berserk they know and love.
Have you read the newer chapters? The art style has indeed transitioned. Anyone would notice that change. For the story its not like linkin park completely rebranding the franchise. I mean that wouldnt work for mangas. Its still berserk if you read it with a clean mind.

>But thats too something Ive noticed pretty recently that the rap songs most of the time revolves around personal life of rappers
Raps werent relatable back then. It was all about hoods gangsta life violence and all white people couldnt relate to it so thay named it black music. But these days i think its more relatable to wider audience cause its about personal hardships mental issues relationships and more psychological themes. Thats why not only black community but much more wider audience can relate to it. I dont know how much of a truth this is but people really do love to relate their life with others and maybe that calms them down. But i think that genre has become old atp as well. This generation is brainrot and everything is evolving around brainrot. The new rap is brainrot too. Same thing is repeated until a beat change in a mumble rap. It makes people think less so maybe people like it.


>I think bands like Gojira, Tool opeth even somber rock bands like pink floyd and king crimson music can be enjoyed the way you want to.
Pink floyd is calm and soothing not much loud so even if its about somthing deep i think i can listen to it any time. But i cant say the same for loud and psychological words. I dont hate it but i cant really listen to it everyday. I appretiate it beautiness and how great it is but everyday nah. Maybe everyday is a lil bit exaggerating not even true fans may listen to them everyday. Like I have listened to their songs multiple times round the time i first listened to them which is now. I still am listening. But i dont think i can do that everyday or even once a week. I will now only listen to them when i get reminded of it randomly.

I may just want to listen to drums and guitar solos someday and i would actually listen to their songs even it has heavier words but i can focus less on the words and more on the instruments but that also doesnt mean i can do it anyday. Or i can also just listen to instrumentals only with no lyrics.

>I used to love beastars and still do love the previous 2 seasons
Waited for this one for too long i might watch this if i dont get bored.

> I do wanna watch Uzumaki though. Im sure it will be pretty short.
Yeah its short. 4 episodes only.

>Dropping is a sin. I mean if I watched 2/3 ep and already wasted 1 hr of my life.
I rarely drop after getting into 3 4 episodes as well but i normally drop after just watching one episode or not even completing it.

Have you even finished shikanoko? I see you have seen 7 episodes on your profile.

What do you think of aizen? Do you like him except for his voice? Not liking his voice would be a crime fr.

Do you think there are cultural, psychological, and colloquial terms or moments that can be specific to certain countries or cultures. Ofcourse there is but how do you see it?
I was watching a japanese interview video on youtube and even the old people are very much familiar with terms like KO HP QUEST COMBO. If you go up to even 20 y/o in nepal they might not know it. That doesnt mean we are dumb. We werent culturally brought up that way. Japanese people also dont know about the colloquial or cultural terms used in Nepal. But i still think it somehow psychologically affects a person's mental growth. I am not just talking about words like KO HP here its just an example. Bu there are various global terms and moments we are unaware about which maybe normal but not everytime. But its not our fault either Japan just got early access to western world cause it had a war with the US and we didnt. But they were not only dependent on western culture they have magnified their culture globally and have had economical impact in their country as well. We havent been able to that.

Now i m not saying that just because half of the population of nepal doesnt know words like anime pachinko HP KO game center we are dumb. Those wrods were just example. I am saying do you think not learning about globally popular terms and moments anyhow affect you mentally? Is that also why we have lowest IQ in the world? If not we havent made a huge ecomonic or psychological recognition through our own culture as well. We are dependent upon cultures we are unaware about. and I think that has affected this country and its people. We can either learn other culture and make our culture recognizable or make our culture recognizable and learn others. We havent done both.

hami sanga culture xa
culture lai global banauna sakeko xainau
ani how does that affect the country and our mentality? k tyei bhayera hamro lowest iq ho ta? haina hola
tara hami aru desh mathi dependent xau tara tyo desh kai barema ni kehi tha xaina.
america mathi dependent xau tara lgbt bhaneko tha xaina.
tha hunu jaruri ni xaina
tara kehi nai tha na hunu afnai culture bata blind hunu chai murkhata ko sign ho bhanthanxu ma chai
jun le chai hamlai psycologically affect gareko xa ra hamro iq lowest xa

how much of this you think is true?

Sorry for being out of context suddenly.

> I have the MAL app on my phone and it gives me notifications about new shows and comments.
I have turned off notifications for almost all the apps I use. I have MAL in my phone but i never get notifications on my phone from MAL. I almost everyday instinctively open MAL on my laptop thats how i know about notifications.

>I love lot of anime osts but I feel like I love them in context with the anime and not just the ost it self.
I love listening to raw osts. Most of the anime ost are not even noticable for me cause thats not what we watch anime for. If i focus on osts more than the story either the story is shit or ost is top tier. If its a top tier ost its a waste to just listen it with other anime sounds which aint even that clear. I also dont go back to every osts. Only ones that i have listened raw multiple times are frieren's clannad fruits basket and few ghibli ones.

>No matter how crazy songs they make and how talented new singer is, I guarantee you that people would still compare him to chester.
Yeah thats inevitable. If the band member had replaced as a lead singer maybe that would have minimized the damage a lil bit. But they arent trying to replace chester here looks like they are rebranding the band as a new. But maybe creating a new band would have made sense too. Maybe the new fans will like it. Its a completely new vibe to the band as well the new singer is a female. Even if people compare her with chester its not like they have choice. He aint coming back never. I mean he is dead whats the point of comparing? Only if criticizers learned that.

>I dont think most people who just casually listens to music cares about who writes what and who produces what.
He is a rapper does he have the vocal range like chester did tho? Both have completely different singing style. The vube of the band would completely change. I would say the new singer is closer to chester than mike is maybe thats also why they choosed the new singer as their lead singer. He also has a lot going on. Since he is the leader and they are rebranding the group he would have to work his ass off as well. If he can he would have. What i still think is maybe it would have made sense for them to make a completely new band.

>Genuinely used to hate raps. I used to think raps are all about guns, murders and sex.
I thought raps like this have stopped but its still coming. The raps about gangs guns hoes is pretty oldschool atp. 21 savage still sings about guns gangs money and hoes but what I like about him is it isnt pretentious at all. But same cannot be said for everyone. He looks like a genuine good guy. Raps have evolved i think gangsta raps are too old these days. Few people have changed rap but a new time has come again that change is old itself. Mumble rap and trap are in market these days which i quite enjoy but these raps may change the view of rap for new listeners.

>Their song Lateralus is literally made using math.
Lmao didnt expect much before listening to it. But looks like they used fibonacci series. I did some research on this song. There is maths lmao. Never imagined something like this. I just realized it but the band kinda gives me maths vibes. Also looks like they wrote the song themselves. Dk if the band has a mathematician member but its impressive if its self taught or they remember it from their college time. Their other songs look well structured like using some kinda patterns or rhythms so maybe they were always familiar with mathematical concepts.

>Which I strongly disagreee but its a unique song. just coz your song is nerdy doesnt automatically makes it great.
Yeah but it indeed is unique and impressive.


yeah the album is open to interpretation and it sounds like everything makes sense. Ofc the one referenced in L Enfant Sauvage, would mean wild from the start, never having been exposed to society or its norms. This absence of socialization means that the child is not rejecting social norms they never had them to begin with. So yeah its uderstandable why you think that "this album doesn't talk about rejecting social norms but more about having the balance between humanity, nature and social norms". The child is simply living according to nature having never been influenced by social expectations.

>Only albums left are The way of all flesh and Fortitude.
Yea i dont know how many albums are left but havent been listening to anything lately. Maybe ill go for TOOL when i feel like. Gojira has indeed changed my view on these types of band. I would say tho it has broke my expectations both negatively and positively. But that was cause i was curious and had expectations from what I had heard. I think i have learned more about the genre so i know what to expect and what to not. The songs and the words are great but i cant see myself listening to them everyday I dont want to think about psychological and spiritual concepts every day. It has to be that kinda day when you feel like listening to this kinda songs.

>If you find any worthwhile anime lemme know. Ive been wanting to watch anime for quite a while now.
Have you heard of dandadan? Its coming this season. We have uzumaki anime as well. Do you like re zero? Its 3rd season is coming as well. You like beastars dont you? Thats coming as well. and many more. iF THERES ANY HAREM ILL LET YOU KNOW LMAO.

> But I dont wanna waste my time on trashes.
If its trash you can just drop it. I wont watch it either if its trash. So i wouldnt know whats trash and what isnt. If i like and you dont its trash for you.

>I do not know classical music.
Do you still go back to anime or movies ost? I kinda once in a while go bck to ghibli OSTs. If I remember i listen to other anime as well. Recently listened to the fruits basket's ost. Tbh i dont always enjoy the ending or opening songs but i absolutely love the musics and osts. Mostly ghibli for me tho and joe hisashi outside of ghibli as well.

>Linkin Park despite being a metal band technically, they still are lot more accessible for general audience coz of their songs like Numb and In the End which really arent even a metal songs.
I think people loved to sing along back then the vocals were somewhat clear without even having the need to see the actual lyrics. Like I said they sung some of their songs in the school programs so maybe they just wanted to remember the songs and sing along and enjoy. The energy thier song carries matched the vibe of 15 y/o. Nothing more than that in the case of my school. I was already listening to a few bands like pink flyod back then so i was kinda just curious about a new band. Thats how I got into linkin park.

>Bringing someone new is very risky. No matter how good the new singer is, people wont stop yapping about how much better Chester was.
Yeah it is risky. But it still wasnt chester's band alone. I mean they can experinemt what they want to if it works good for them if not they will do what they have to do. Isnt mike like even bigger than chester? Not like popularity or fame wise but like in production wise? I think he even is the founder of the band.

As far as I know mike writes songs and produces songs as well and as a founder of the band also theres already loads for him. If for the authenticity of the band maybe it would make sense for him to take the lead singer position. But maybe they just want to stick to their own job like back then only replace what they cant change no matter what I think its okay.

>And I never thought about this feeling untill I heard Vicarious song. And I started to realize how fking accurate the lyrics are.
One thing that completely me shocked me about metal songs are how normal the lyrics are even with al l that growling. Ofc vicarious is normally sung song. I have always found lyrics in band musics easy to comprehend. I still hate trying to understand lyrics so hard that i dont even focus the music but when like I genuinely focus on lyrics it really sinks in well. Compared to this some of the raps lyrics truly suck ass. And thats why I think maybe this is why I like raps. Cuz lyrics are shit anyways and i dont need to focus on it and can enjoy mucis only. I do enjoy mumble rap as well cuz either way i wouldnt understand the lyrics anyways. So just enjoy the music beats and whatever they mumble if ina a good rhythm. I dont think i need to know about glocks and hoes of every rappers.

But yeah man vicarious was really easy to understand. Maybe cuz of how i normally dont go for lyrics shocked me myself for how easily i understood the lyrics this time.
there is this another line in the song

We all feed on tragedy
It's like blood to a vampire
Vicariously, I live while the whole world dies
Much better you than I

I love when its like a riddle man in things like this. Its like in nepali exams when they give you a paragraph from a poem and ask you to describe them. They look simple they sink in simply but what these words hold is powerful. Not just lyrically but if their other songs are like this im definitely checking out this band.

I again listened to L'Enfant Sauvage and i think i grasped a lil bit more this time. I think the track L'Enfant Sauvage
talks about society's expectations and individual freedom. Desiring to break free from all the unwritten social rules and norms and live for yourself according to you. I dont know what L'Enfant Sauvageis maybe its a french word. I guess its related t0 the story tho.

Mouth of Kala was another one i didnt get and had to google. But turns out it was related to a hindu gof called kali who represents time transformation and destruction so maybe the song talks about these themes.

Tbh man I think overall this talks about personal transformation, rejecting societal norms, the suffering, the destruction and human growth. Breaking free from the prison of the society to discover your freedom. I think the album represents the band well. As far as i know this abnd its a typical gojira album.

> I always used to think speed makes heavy music.
This could still makes sense tho. Maybe not everytime but speed is one of the elements.

>This album is made by the band for the singer's dead mother.
Yeah man thats what i found out after doing some research. I am not saying that i have a problem with it or its shit. I was caught off guard when listening to it for the first time. Maybe if i go for it next time i will learn more about it.

> Some people do dislike this album coz its not as heavy as their earlier albums. Which I dont see any problem with.
Same man. If its about a topic like death i think it carries the emotional intensity into the music. Maybe the not heavy shift in tone reflects genuine feelings of loss. I dont think a song about a loss os something needs to be heavy. In the prog genre maybe you should be ready for experiments.

>And imagine a metal songs which is meant to be fking fast.
Yeah I understand all of that. Im not arguing the they should have melodies. It was just a characterstics that I realized while listening. I mean i knew that but just randomly realized it.

>Have you been watching anything lately?
Just 4 or 5 seasonal ones. This season is over now. My ptw is kinda packed for the next season. Quite a few interesting ones this season. Maybe check this season's list once.

>I know if tehre is any death metal banda that most popular in general audience than it would be something like Opeth or Death or Cnnibal Corpse but thats not saying anything coz death metal in general isnt much appreciated outside the metal genre.
Ofc just knowing the name of the band and knowing what they also do is a differernt thing. I dont think most people would think of opeth first when its about death metal but that dosnt mean it isnt popular. I do think it is popular enough to be recognized by someone who is active in other music genre. I think it just becomes a common knowledge for someone who is active in music. One of my friends mostly listens to raps only. But he has decent knowledge of every other genres. I asked him about opeth and gojira and he had once listened to opeth but not gojira but he knew about gojira. People may not listen to their songs but i think they just "recognize" the bands.

>i think they are fine. I dont have any bad thing to say about them while I also am not big fan of their music..
I remember our teacher in class 9 suggesting linkin park to us and it was all over our school. I still dont understand why he suggested that kind of music to 9th graders. It was really popular that time on our school few even sung Numb in the school programs.

Looks like the band is back again. I havent seen much criticizes yet. Looks like they are renewing the band i mean thats only what they can do. I havent seen haters yet but i think there would be a very small fanbase. The band is already lost. I also feel like they could have started a new band instead. But again it is not chester's band alone. i mean yeah idc. I wont listen to them but might go through old songs once in a while.

>Please listen to their "Vicarious"
I think vicarious means "living life through others". Google says "experienced in the imagination through the feelings or actions of another person." The title is clear as well. I think the song talks about the idea of our modern society like how often we experience life through media particularly when it comes to violence. We are experiencing and living through other's view or idea about thing we havent personally expereinced. We are ready to witness war violence tragedy as long as we are safe. We want to witness others experiencing it and get entertained by it. We have no problem as long as it doesnt happens to us.

one of the verses goes like this

"I need to watch things die from a good safe distance
Vicariously, I live while the whole world dies
You all need it too, don't lie"

This shows the idea of witnessing destruction death and violence from a safe distance. We are drawn towards negative events like wars and disasters but we dont want to be involved. As long as we are in our home witnessing it from TV its okay.

"Vicariously, I live while the whole world dies"
We consume people's tragedy as entertainment. People are suffering but we are getting entertained by it. We havent lived that we are living it through someone else. Cause thats what we have been shown. We dont know shit. All we know is its entertaining.

"You all need it too, don't lie"
This doesnt only happens to the singer. This isnt unique to him at all. Society as a whole is associated in this phenomenon. This is a universal case.

The suffering of others becomes something to just watch rather than to empathize with. Its like an addictive need for more tragic or violence contents or events to live. I listened to it twice. I will only talk this much about it.

>I don't think its anything wrong with that. I feel certain way about this album. If you don't feel the same way that's fine.
I thought the whole point of this album was what you said. I didnt find that. Then i realized maybe its a metaphorical thing. I am not saying that we cannot have a different opinion about a same thing. My whole idea before listening to this album was whale coming to earth which i didnt find. Also while listening I found some songs much more simpler how you interpreted it. So all i meant was i found this album much more simpler than what you said. Also i havent gone through all of the lyrics in a proper way.

I listened to The link and Magma as well. I think I understand more about this band and the type of music they make. I have also understood what they focus on more in their songs. I think they talk about the destructive impact humans have on the earth and its resources. I have been listening to born in winter and I think it delves into the themes of life time and the nature of existence. It adresses the idea that life is part of something larger and more mysterious than we may understand.

"You will go to the beyond, when you leave the world behind"
I think this line references death indicating the end of the journey.

"You were born in a dark place
With the coldest embrace"

I think this indicates the experience of being born into a harsh or difficult environment. Winter symbolizes the coldness and isolation at the beginning of life. People face hardships and difficulties immediately after they are born.

I have only listened to The Link once so for now after reading a few lyrics what i think about it is like always it focises on the idea of human's connection with nature. Like its name "Link". Our destructuve impact on the earth and also the spiritual bond that ties all life together.

About Magma tho. I dont know much about it. I dont think it was close to what they always do. It didnt had much of what their other music has. Like environmental and nature related themes.

I also found that there is a lack of melody and rhythmic patterns in death metal vocals. Its not that i want they to have musical structures like melody and harmony in the vocal delivery.But its something that I found after listening to this genre for a while.



Have you been watching shikanoko nokonoko?

>Ive no fking idea what the fk this is.
Listen to is once just for the sake of witnessing how fucked up the lyrics is. Ecstacy Suicidal Idol.

>Gojira was even less popular than Opeth but as they did the opening of Olympics this year I think they've gotten a little more global recognition.
I think opeth is quite popular tho. Even among general music listener and not only metal listener. Just knowing and actually listening may be different but i also know a few people that have just heard the name opeth and they know it is a band. I myself knew about opeth gojira and tool even before listening to them. But yeah just knowing but not knowing what they do could be a diference. I think its just a common knowledge if you are in the same communiry. Even for anime these days we might not be that much active in the community but we knew about every anime that was gonna come out, I used to listen to linkin park back then and it had been so long since I last listened to them i was out of touch from any kind of linkin park news but their latest news is everywhere. I didnt even visit their official sites pages or anything but i still heard about it. Its just about social media these days. If one of them knows everyone will know about it.What do you think about linkin park tho?

>I went in Parabola without knowing anything.
These are quite noticable ngl. But i dont know if i would have noticed it if wasnt aware beforehand. But its still about instruments so i think may have. If it was a vocal thing i may not have noticed.

>Its funny how you feel that way coz me personally think Terra Incognita is their 2nd least 'proggy' album after The Link.
Maybe i need to listen to all of their albums first to judge that. I mean it was their first album i listened to and i also got what i expected. It was long compared to Lenfant Sauvage so its natural to have more resources in it. I also listened to the whale one yesterday. Instrument wise im not disappointed. I did go through some of the lyrics and i didnt find it as complicated as you made it sound. Dont get me wrong but i dont think i found out about whale coming from another planets anywhere. Is that supposed to be a metaphor or something? I might find about it if i invest more time on it But tracks like Global Warming. To sirius. In the wilderness. World to Come etc were quite easy to understand. I mean global warming as the name suggets anyone would know what this is about. But I still think im not much of a fan of the throat singing. I mean the words are beaufitul the track names are great it pulls you deeper it makes you want to understand all of it but man not really a fan of that type of singing. Also my thought regarding this album while listening to it and while writing about it now is completely different. I might give it a second listen. I will try to go through all of the lyrics if possible. Also Im not trying to make you look bad here by telling that you made this album sound complicated. I just didnt go much deep and its also my first listen I just wrote what I found from the outer layer. I might found what you said If i go deep and invest more time.

>From the surface level due to their vocals it feels like they are doing some satanic rituals but if you see the lyrics they maybe have the most thought provoking lyrics in music.
Now I am completely sure that the lyrics in death metal are truly normal. Much more normal than raps at least. Most raps talk about only american references that only true americans would understand and i have found out that the only metal bands that i listened to opeth and gojira are from freaking europe. This could be another example of american thinking theres no other country except america. And yet, these bands are not native to gnglish speaking countries but their lyrics have a much greater impact on real life situations. Or maybe they could be native english speakers working on europe idk much.


>First time I noticed Danny drumming was in Schism.
Just searched this song on youtube and there was a red line in the thumbnail till the end looks like i listened to it in the past. I have no memory of it tho. Went for drums but couldnt get my head off the electric guitars riffs. I think drums are one of the most underated instruments. I dont know about you and others but drums are what i hear the loudest after guitar in any type of band musics and keys or piano is what I hear less if there is one. Of course, all instruments need to be in sync, but Im always more biased toward the drums.

>Youre liking it more now or what?
I can say I like it cuz i at least listened to it 15 times.

>It is pretty heavy album but it calms us down with a song called Unicorn
Ya man. It was soft and calming. I feel like i heard whale sounds in the background. I wonder how thay make those sounds. There was this song from another band or something it had elephant sounds in the songs but it was very hard to believe that it was made by a computer. I dont think it was made using computer.

>Its quite possibly the best anime that tackles the 'passion' theme.
Looks like its not similar to what I suggested theme wise. It wasnt weird until a few episodes but it looks like it would have romance elements later on if it continues. But it doesnt has silly fanservice and sexual elements. I saw a guy on MAL review complaining how he came for incest sex and found boring character development. It handles "step relation" in a matured way thats why i talked about it cause you said you now relate more to adulty and matured stuff.

>I personally have songs I like from all genre but I fking hate lot of popular vibey kinda songs.
There are thousands of songs that go viral on social media everyday. Ofc we cant keep track of all the songs. Do you know a song called ecstacy by suicidal idol? Its pretty popular in reels and shorts. The gyatt song is also inspired by this song. I hated this song at the beginning. If you look at the lyrics its weird as well. But I dont hate this song. I havent more than once searched this song myself and listened to it. But whenever i see this song on the meme and reels I view it more than twice. What I mean is you may hate popular songs in the beginning. But a truly popular ones are inevitable so in the long run you may find something that you like about it or maybe hate more. One of my friends listened to all of the taylor swit's songs to truly and detailly hate on tailor swift but he said he liked some of the early songs. The newer ones were shit.
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>There are people who dont enjoy this but the album also has some cult like fan following.
Maybe people around me are not that deep fan. I asked to some of my friends and they havent heard more than 2 albums from opeth. They might have only listened to the popular ones.

>Even if the beginning was softer, even then the music is always changing like every minute or so. You can notice it pertty easily.
For someone like me who doesnt goes much deep in the first listen unless it is easily noticable i would never know the changes. If I was blindly diving into these bands without knowing what they do I would have never noticed this prog and all. Its only cause i knew beforehand that theere are some elements that needs to be noticed to enjoy this kind of music. If we had not talked about it I would be just blindly diving into it.

>I personally like the longer ones more. It just feels "prog" if that makes sense. but shorter ones are pretty great as well.
I think I can change my thought on that after listening to some of more from gojira. It would actually still make sense for these types of songs to be longer i mean if you are gonna try variety of things on your single song it would make sense for the song to be longer. But the short ones dont disappoint either. Im kinda into the instruments so the longer i get to hear the instruments the better.

>Prog music has very high emphasis on instrumentals.
I feel like overall all of the band music has very high emphasis on instruments compared to other genres of music not jazz ofcourse. What is a band music without guitars and drums.

>Plus it also happens to be pretty beginner friendly. Their heavier songs can be pretty fking overwhelming for newcomers.
I listened to two of their albums for now. Terra incognita and L'Enfant Sauvage. I like to watch and listened things in chronological order so I found Terra incognita first in spotify idk if its their first album. Been busy lately so couldnt wait till i reached L'Enfant Sauvage cause the song born in winter i liked was in this album. The first album is great. Very different from Opeth's morningrise if thats what their first album is. Terra Incognita has everything. Truly feels like an experiment. Looks like they tried everything in their first album to let people know what kind of band they are. All of the songs are different. I dont think I focused much on the words. The throat singing is one of the things I kinda hate but the instrumentals makes up for all that.

L'Enfant Sauvage kinda disappointed me ngl. Ofc I liked a song from this album so I had high hopes. Idk how much does it make sense to say every songs sounded similar to a prog album but thats what I felt. Similar not as in they all have same beat same words melody and all. Compared to their first album that i listened it had so less. Looks like they tried all of what they could do in their first album. I might go through more of their album today. Another thing i found out is that the lyrics is quite normal. Ofc the way they sing in death metal is kinda unusual so i thought the lyrics would be unusual as well. But the lyrics in L'Enfant Sauvage was quite normal this kinda made me laugh for thinking the lyrics would be abnormal lmao.

>So its better if you listen the version where they are both mashed up in one single song.
Oh yeah. The transition is great. The drums are great in parabola. It sounds like the vocal and drums are not in sync but ofcourse that cannot happen. Thats pure beauty. I am listening to it rn as well. I will again. The drums truly are great.

>You can. Both have differences even if they are exact same songs.
This is one song i have been listening to multiple times ofc the opeth version. But i did listen to the oeiginal one as well. I was kinda busy to open this site so this was the only song what I remembered.

>They even have a album called "From Mars to Sirius" which is about how Whales are actually an alien creature
Why not listen to this absolutely now. Straight going fot it.


Did you watch any of that losing heroine anime?

I was out in a place with no wifi so to cure my boredom i watched this another anime called Days with my stepsister. From the title you might think its weird. But the thing is it isnt. The beginning setting is normal dad marrying another woman and another woman having a daughter same age as you. But it isnt what you think like at all. You might like it. The atmosphere is kinda similar to 3 gatsu no lion. Not much comedy not much energetic and character development. If you like get confused on what to watch someday go for it.

>I do understand but people have different vibes.
I underatand that but cmon everyone vibes to the popular pop musics. Maybe not when they are alone but one would have to when they are in a group. Everyone has a different music taste so i dont think that diversity works when all of those different people are together.

>If I like a song I wont go and search other of the same singer's songs.
If its really really popular you dont even need to search for the song these days. I have never searched the new "okane" song but I still know its lyrics. Meme's and reels do their thing.

>Eevry genre of music has its mood.
Yeah but can you multitask listening to heavy metal. If i play it in a speaker I might. But with earpods and earphones on I dont think I could. I also easily get anoyed by loud sounds. Ofc every music has its mood but that doesnt mean they fit in every mood.

>Damnation is fairly popular. But I dont think its popular for good reason.
Didnt know that this album was controversial. People around me tend to enjoy this and praise it. Maybe cuz Im not active in the real community.

>People really be hating things when their favorite band goes off their normal voice and try something new. People really not be liking changes it seems.
Would make sense if they are the fans from beginning tho. People would be emotionally attached to their favorite band and getting aggresive to a change is understandable. But newer fans like in anime community maybe they could be called pricks.


>How you feel about them?
Maybe I listened to to bid you farewell about 6 7 times now. Havent gone much deep yet. I am enjoying the music and instrumentals for now. Its not that there are much lyrics. Guitar's good. Soft in the beginning and not that hard but looks like electric guitar enters later on in the song. That bit is good. Is that prog?
Soft guitar in the beginning. Lyrics for sometime and hard guitar later on feels like a good combination thats what I liked. Havent focused on the words much yet except for some lines you wrote a few days ago.
Its not that I like the 20 min one. Its long so i cant focus to all of it in one listen. Just trying to focus on all of it thats why had to listen to it multiple times.

>Longer songs arent mandatory but they usually are long.
Ok so its not that they are prog becasue they are long but they are long because they are prog? Understandable but I still think it would need to be longer if its progressing and evolving. The amount of progression in 15 mins would be higher than in 5 mins. but again its not about the quantity of experiment in prog song. It could be way more than that. I dont know much yet but from what I have heard from you I think the longer the better.

>n my first listen I was captivated by the somber voice and instrumentals of the songs.
I have found out out that I dont even care about the voice and lyrics until i have listened to a sing for about 10 times. I never realized that I liked instrumentals and music so much . Maybe cause I was always fond of drums and I even learned it once. Never really felt a strong urge to learn guitar but I like guitar solos and its tunes. I do like singing as well but vocals and lyrics is not something I really focus on. If its like only instrumentals but slow and soothing I can go for it but slow and soothing vocals is a no go for me.

>Born in winter
Its great man thanks for suggesting this. Maybe prog songs dont need to be longer after all. This has changed my view now. Really enjoyed this brother. I dont know what to say more for now. Its great definitely will listen to it more and more.

>parabol+parabola at the same time
Dont know what "at the same time" is supposed to mean but I listened to parabol in the first cuz you wrote it first. I think I understand the prog elements now but didnt understood how those 2 songs are related. Guessing its explores the same topic from two contrasting perspectives. one side reflecting on the quiet. and the other reflecting enthusiastic experience of living. Felt like two different songs ngl. I will listen to it more probably. Dont think it had much prog element maybe i missed it or didnt notice.

This is only what I managed to listen to for now. I am quite busy these days just listened to these 3 songs as Im writing . The gojira ones seems great. I will write about other songs next time when I listen to it. Couldnt manage more than 3 today.


>Who the fk is this guy. Lil jhola? lmao nepali guys really cant think of good names man fk.
Its a new rapper guy havent you heard a new rap song in the internet?

Jhola gang myachis
baby timi bad bitch
ma chai bhusya kukur
maile toke bhane baby hunxa timlai rabies
samhalera rakha natra hola baby hamala
naam k ho bhana timro parbati ki kamala
jane bhaye jau koi ni xaina mero ghar ma
bajauchhu ma chak timro just like tabala
dom dom dom dom dom dom dom
lagayera aago futaidinxu timro bum
lwam lwam lwam lwam lwam lwam lwam
pani pani banaidinxu amma kasam

the lyrics is shit as you can see but the song is vibe-y enough.

> Ive been playing Elden Ring for about a week now. Im this close to completeting it.
Havent played much PC games other than gta and minecraft . Didnt know games would be completed within a week

>Ive wanted to watch 12 Angry Men and Drive for long time now.
Go for it man. Both are short and great. Drive is about 1.40hr 12 angry men about 1.30hr.


>You should listen to it as well. Its obviously somber rock song so its kinda slow and all. You should listen to it regardless. Its pretty short.
Listened to it as well. Dont think I hate it. Should I listen to the original one as well? I would listen to it anyways.

One of my friends also listens to songs that I would never hear if he doesnt tells me. You here do the same as well makes me wonder how many songs there might be that we would never ever listen to. I have heard about tool opeth and gojira but never really picked their song. Really forced myself this time and listened to
morningrise. Idk kinda feels like a new music journey for me. I feel like TOOL and Opeth can wait for sometime. I want to check on gojira first.

>I also know Inuyashiki is from same author and I havent seen it yet. I wanna read it more than Gantz though.
Yeah you can go for it. It is short compared to gantz and it prolly has 0 fan service. Its great as well. Almost all of his manga is related to aliens and sex most of the time. Inuyashiki is also kinda related to aliens but has 0 sex.


> Ive heard Gantz is pretty bizzare manga. Like its more weird than JoJo's.
I dont see how it can be compared tiwh jojo in terms of bizzare. Jojo is pretty normal. Gantz is bizzare asf. Its fucked up. Everything that happens in this manga from the start links up with the most unthinkable thing ever. Idk man its weird.

>For me trying to remember a lyrics has never been a priority, Plus I dont even care to understand and remember if the lyrics is pretty retarded
Not only lyrics man. If a song is vibe-y. I automatically get vibey and whistle or humm along. The lyrics comes in itself after you hear it for a long time you dont need to intentionally memorize it unless you are going for a singing competition. For pop songs I think one needs to vibe along. Isnt that what pop songs are for? Vibing along doesnt only mean singing along it could mean humming dancing or whistling. I dont think I know the lyrics of kale dai and thamel bazar because i memorized the lyrics.

>I am not complaining if I hear one but will I myself try and follow new pop songs?
I wont follow that either. Did I found out shape of you because i follow ed sheeran? No. Did I found out about despacito because i follow louis fonsi? No. If these types are songs are created for commercial purpose its gonna become hit and people from all around the world are gonna find about it anyways. And since the majority of people like and consume these types of song. I think its good for social hangouts and ceremonies. But i dont think am always a fan of something loud and energetic when am alone. I might want to listen to something soothing and less loud so that i can multitask as well. Loud music could distrack you when you are alone.


>I love Morningrise but I have to say its Opeth's maybe weakest album.
I listened to To bid you farewell first and found about this album. Then I found about damnation which is kinda popular so gave it a listen as well. Since I only listened to both the albums for one time. I cant say much. But I did listen to 2 snngs from morningrise multiple times. To bid you farewell and that 20 mins long one. I didnt find any songs damnation that made me feel like listening to it again. I clearly didnt not expect to like morningrise as well. I am really not into this type of musics. What I feel is tho the kind of songs this band produces makes sense for longer songs. Damnation didnt have any longer songs like more than 10 mins. But every songs from morningrise were longer than 10 mins. So all I think is this type of musics are well suited for longer songs. As you said this type of songs are experimental so the longer the time the kore experiments??

>Damnation has pretty interesting lore lol.
Now I wont understand all this in my first listen. Idk how may darn times you have listened to this album to understand all of this. I listened to it one time and decided to not like it so its just end for me. I might never pick it up again. I would never understand the depth of it now.

>Most prog music are long as heck and prog music mostly focuses on instruments. The 2/3 minute instruments solo.
Yeah thats how progs should be. If its as you say "experimental". What can you experience in 3 mins? It need to be longer if different kind of shits are goinf to be mashed together. There are like beat swicthes in raps. But is that called prog? Progressive rap?

>I can guarantee you have never heard any music like Parabola.
Okay I will listen to every thing you mentioned in order.

>Rap is pretty big but it can never dream to get bigger than pop.
Rap might not take over pop but i think its everywhere days. I think its easy to become a rapper than a singer. Do you know a guy called 'lil jhola"? He popped outta no where and so did other rappers. But to become a singer you need win the reality shows.


?>I mean what the fk does this even mean
Idk man this song was clearly targetted for just social media trend only.

>I think its pretty counter-productive but they do what they wanna do.
True. But I think i would want to get distracted by my sadness rather than indulge in it. So I would choose energetic and aggresive songs as well. The sad songs would just pull myself into more sadness.

>Pure storytelling standpoint I dont think there is anything above music except Books.
I could agree but not all musics arelike that. Some musics and musicians could be a top nocth story tellers but not all are. Similarly with movies and animes. Some are some arent. I feel like text definitely is a better way of story telling. It forces you to use your imagination and all. Even if you dont understand the music you check the lyrics which is pure text. Anime subtitles are texts. Its like all those MSword and Powerpoint could be great but Notepad still slaps.

I watched 4 movies in 2 days.
The Interview. Drive. La La Land. 12 Angry Men.
Except La La Land everything else were great. I didnt know drive was that good. 12 Angry men was good as well. The interview peak humor peak comedy. But yeah La La Land turned out to be mid at last. The timeskip thing ruined it all.
I understand why you said it was a waste of time.